My life,my memories...

2007-02-15T19:59:00.000+08:00

Hey guys,i had changed my blog to http://josephinegoh.multiply.com

Please change your link..thank you very much!=)

2007-02-12T16:36:00.000+08:00

This is Tim,the mischevious boy!Dont see him like see,his gf is HOT!
This is Yan ming,from China.Her bf is handsome wor..
cuties!!!
1b03's angels!haahaa..nadia lookin cute here
my sweetieee pie izyan..love her lots
the 3 hot chicks!hahaa..
Monday is here again,a week pass after a week.How time flies!This is a last week for 1b03.Sob sob.I dont want!I love my humble and sweet classmates a lot!During break,all of us were so engrossed in our conversations,everyone seems so happy!

Oh yes,today we got back our coursework results.OB i got C+,argh so dissapointed.But marketing i got an A!!!Only 3 got an A and 1 of them is me.muhaha.Marketing ROCKS!I can forsee myself as a marketing manager already.hmmm...SIAO!nono,that's not my dream!My dream is to be a TAI TAI,remember?hahaha.

After school,Wei wen sent us home.haha it was a nice and fun journey home especially when Tim is around.He was always giving wrong directions to Wei wen and he had to U-turn so many times.We girls are all so noisy.haha.And shockingly,I just realised Tim was staying the next block of mine only.So coincidence man!

sigh,im missing 1b03 le..ok i wanna sleep already.Later must study already..night night...

ps.blogger is sucks..im hating it..i cant post as many pictures as i want..i will change blog soon..arghh!!!

2007-02-11T01:33:00.000+08:00

My day with dear today was pretty fun. We went swimming together!Dear seems so good in everything.When he swam like one lap already,i had just covered less than half of it.He said i swam the wrong way,he tried teaching me but to no avial.I still swim my old way.haha.Then we went to the jacuzzi,just the 2 of us.I like there cos it's quiet and peaceful,it seems like the world only belong to the both of us.lying in his arms in the water made me felt cosy,i just wish time will be a standstill.

After swimming, we went to shop for his slippers.Many told me that they were envy of my sweet loving relationship but actually we gone through rough times too.Take for example today,while shopping the both of us were kinda pissed off with each other words.It wasnt like this in the past.I guess it's because you had known the person for too long so you tend to take things for granted.

Sometimes i felt that he has changed but after thinking through,it's is not that he has changed,it is just him,his true self.As they say,when you know a person for long,their true colours will reveal.(Im not refering to him only,me,myself too.)I really miss the shy old us when the both of us just wouldnt dare to say or do what we really feel like.And one thing for sure,you will treat him/her like gem and i really mean gem.He will calls you everyday,listens to every words you say,talk in a soft spoken voice,make sure you sleep before he does, and etc that will make you feels that you mean everything to him.It;s not that he had not been treating me well recently,he still does but some things somehow changes.I know it's impossible to return back to the honeymoon period whereby everything seems like fairytale cos everyone got to live up to the fact that each of us are bound to have friction with one another if you are together for long.So i should stop myself from looking back and hoping he will return back to that state cos its so so impossible.

Looking at him dozing off my bed now brought back lots of fond memories that i shared with him.The day he held my hands,the first kiss we had,the many times of "i love you" he said a day,the time when he will wait for me before and after work,buying fish bee hoon from changi village,cookingg cabbage soup together and so on...

Valentine's day is coming and im looking forward to it cos i got a pretty pretty present ready for him.It took me many days and night to complete it..but i know it's all worthwhile.

Okay,i want to hug him to sleep already..hehe goodnight people..

2007-02-09T20:55:00.000+08:00

Splendid day!Today was a simple yet eventful day.hehe.Today i was supposed to join my class to three of my classmates birthday celebration but i changed my mind.Cos i was having a slight flu last night and my period was killing me.I felt extremely uneasy.Besides that,my wallet was left with a few cents only.The kind Jlai and Izyan darlings wanted to lend me money but in the end i still decided not to go because i dont want to owe people money.It's not nice.Thanks anyway,im sure u all did enjoyed..=(

So i decided to go to dear dear's house and give him a surprise since he gave me 3 surprises in a row.muhaha thanks God he was at home.Coincidentally while i was waiting for a bus to his house,ah tal and mk saw me and they called me.So i decided to meet dear dear than meet them together.So after eating dear's mum yummy congee,we went to meet them.After chatting with them for awhile,ah tal and i decided to walk to Punggol sec to see how the sec4s and 5s fare for their olevels this year.I was so anxious to know about ah mui's english result too and thanks God she passed..=)Then upon reaching the school,we saw so many familiar faces,ms lee,mr yeo,mr han,mr wu,mrs lim and so on...and also the BITCH!She's a poor thing cos none of us went to approach her for a chat,oh man she must be missing her nasi babi.OMG,am i evil?Oh,who cares?Hmph,who ask her to scold ah tal and i infront of the whole class last time and tell tales about me to other teachers.f*ck u BITCHHHH!!!

So happy to see Mr yeo too.He had became a relief teacher already.Things changed so much after we left.Actually we are the one whom had changed a lot la..haha all grown up.ah tal and i saw quite a number of our choir juniors and i bet they must be thinking wah these 2 girls still best friend ar,always sticking in school together.haha.We both never changed,still as KPO as last time.We also saw mrs lim,our history teacher.At first i was so afraid that she will comment on my dyed hair and called me "hiao"(vain) but instead she said we are beautiful.haha and the first thing she said when she saw dear was "don't sleep in class ar!" haha so cute lor.I still remember during history,dear always doze off without fail and he always got scolded by Mrs Lim.Dear is really so adorable.

We actually wanted to eat our favourite Szechuan soup but too bad the canteen stalls are all closed.It was dear's favourite too.haha talking about food,dear dear is now influenced by me,everything that he eat also must add chillis.'sama sama'(same in Malay) ar..haha..sama good so in the future we marry will be 'pas de probleme'(np in French).Oh im mad,i think im too happy today.

Okay i think i had blogged to much..all i wanna say is i miss my old school,i miss the teachers,i miss my clique,i miss the food,i miss the enviroment and i miss my DEARRRR....hehe okay bye bye...

2007-02-07T15:08:00.000+08:00

SEXYYYY!!!Christina Milian is such a hottie!I'm so into her now.She has some similarities with Rihanna.ohhh...look at her body.I adore her!when can i be like her???She is like so close to perfection.OMG..even im drooling..haa

2007-02-07T14:19:00.000+08:00

Just checked my exam timetable and hell knows,IT'S COMING!!!oh dear,i better start bucking up and do some revisions already.Had been lagging back too much.Shit shit shit,i shall bear with the exam stress just for this last time.I hate mugging la,it causes my hair to turn white.

Im getting really worry for my brother, there seems to be something wrong with his health,arghh i really hope there isnt anything.I always believe kind people will meet more mishaps than any others,God please prove me wrong!Im worried for myself too.I have not been taking care of myself.My diet is not stable,one day i will eat a lot(i really mean a lot!) and the next day i just dont eat and it continues like that since a month ago when i used food to forget about my troubles.No one can help me,the strongest enemy is myself,i must defeat this with strong willpower but it is so hard.I think if this goes on,my body is going to shut down.Sigh,i want to consult this problem to someone but most of them will just don't think this is a big problem,they will just tell me to return back to my usual diet but they dont understand that it's very difficult.I need a lot of encouragement.

I dont know why im always having headaches too.I need some rest now.Good bye for now.=(

2007-02-06T00:26:00.000+08:00

Viola viola!!!Je suis fatigue!I had just finished doing the dialogue for my french test tomorrow and now i have yet to memorise it.Oh my god,im so tired!!!

Today jlai treated me lunch because he lost our french paper and i have to redo it all over again.haha poor him,not only he has to blanja me,he has to blanja ah ting too.Deserve him right!He also loves to eavesdrop on girl's talk.Today really had a great chat with ting and shawna.I love girl's talk.It's like you got endless stuffs to say.

I went for Accounts lecture today.Surprising huh?Dear kept pursuading me to go for all my lectures and not to dissapoint him,i went but i was late!haha.Sigh,i sat at the front all by myself,so pathetic,hate siting alone and i hate mr Ooi who called me to answer his question within the whole lecture hall.It's so embarassing if i answered wrongly.When i talk he calls but when im quiet he also calls!!!I think i have really changed.In sec school,im always hoping my teachers will call me to answer their questions but now i just hope i could just hide at one corner where they would not notice me.

After school, i rushed home to change into a sports wear because im meeting dear to gym.yay!!!now i have the card to my aunt's condo.I need not go through my aunt already.hehe thanks dua yi!I can swim,exercise,play tennis or squash...i must bring ah tal there soon.I love to swim with her.haha.oh ya,today exercise was quite okay.Dear was like my personal trainnee who guides and coaches me in the different equiqment to use.i had learnt quite a lot from him.He is my fit fit dearie..hehe.my mr hulk!hahaha.so funny!I think im starting my PMS le,today i was easily irritated by my parents and him.Sorry huh..must understand me,i think my da yi ma coming liao.

Just now while watching the 7pm show with dear.He said my character seems similiar to Felicia chin who acted as Yo yo in the show.Haha i think its really alike.Her boyfriend has to give in to her nasty temper all the time and she will just brighten up if her bf bought something for her.Today,both of them broke up because she felt that they were actually incompatible but in fact i feel that it's the difference of their career paths that caused a change to their relationship.While watching,i thought of dear and i.We are able to talk anything under the sun now but in the future will we ever be the same?We both may pursue different dreams and the level of thinking will soon change.Im so afraid that this day will come cos i really hope that he will be the one to walk the aisle with me one day...I so so love my boyfriend..sigh

ok crap too much again.i want to sleep already.Tomorrow then continue to memorise.nights!

2007-02-04T14:02:00.000+08:00

ooo..pretty ladies..hehe
ah tal hate her chicken wing arms..muhaha
lai lai,hao jie mei,qing yi ge ma!muacks..
this is dear's twin sister,chio ma?i applied the make up for "her" de..
Yay!!!No more bad hair days for me.My hair is back to the normal condition,pretty colour and smooth.haha.

On Friday,we went to ah mui's sister chalet.Quite an enjoyable day.Supposed to stay there overnight but tal & i kinda miss our bfs so we went home instead.Dear and mk came to pick us up.By the way it was summer's birthday.Whao,she has lots of friends,most of them were punggolites.Dear seems so popular,everywhere he go,people knew him.Tal,mui and i went to have Ben & Jerry ice cream too.it's super duppee yummy,must try!!i Love the chocolate one most.

Then after dear sent me home and after i had bathe and washed up,i dont know what went into me and i called dear to say good night.It's like i dont usually call him when i wanna sleep but ironically the night i called,something bad happened.Dear met with an accident and he didnt tell me when i called him.I knew he doesnt want me to be worry but at least he should had told me earlier.Sigh,it was yesterday when he picked me up from the salon then i knew about it.When i saw the bruises and cut on his legs,my heart sank.I was furious yet scared.I gave him a cold shoulder that night.I know it's cruel but i just hate it when he dont seems to care about his life and im really afraid that one day he might leave me.Im not afraid of his riding skills but im afraid of the reckless people on the road.Dear lord,please protect him against any harm!

Anyway i love Saturdaysss,cos its the day when dear will leave all his time for me.muhaha and now he is asleep on my bed..alright,i need to ciao,i must go church later i promise...AND I LOVE MY NEW HAIR!!!!!lalala...

ps.wah bastard blogspot,everytime only can post pictures halfway.shall post the other photos next time.knn lor!!!!arghhh!

2007-01-31T23:55:00.000+08:00

wo de zui ai!
my jewellary case
ta dah!!my hidden necklace..=)
TIRED!Extremely!Today did the finishing of econs project but i didnt really do much cos i got no idea how to do.Thanks God,the bright wan teng helped me out,xie xie ni!

After that i rushed straight home cos dear was at my house already.I can't wait to see him.Then when i reached,he told me to look for a gift and it ended up hidden in the refrigerator where i kept the box of chocolates.Unfortuanately,he saw it.But he is so sweet la!He bought me another precious moment jewellary box with a heart-pendant necklace in it.See my an an,getting the kick already,not a boring,unromantic fellow already.hahaha.But sadly,he doesnt seem to appreciate my gift cos he said food eat already then shit out,not memorable.But but..i thought guys like their gf to do such things?Initially i was quite upsat about it but never mind,the most i do other things the next time round.=(Then we started chatting on the bed again,i just love those little chats with him.We again recapped on our past few months and shared with each other on our likes and dislikes towards one another so that we can work towards our flaws and improve the relationship even further.

dear,merci!!!Je t'aime...

2007-01-31T11:56:00.000+08:00

Firstly,stuffed all the chocolates and decorative materials inside.
Secondly,the words of love...
lastly,sealed it will the pretty wooden lid.

Oh gosh, i slept at 5a.m this morning because i was rushing thru my damm project but i still left with an article cos deserve me right for not attending the lectures!Other then projects, i helped dear to edit his slideshows as well and i did something sweet for him for our 5th month.I did some chocalates.Daddy was so evil,he claimed that my chocalates are inedible but after tasting one,he said not bad.I was relieved!I love doing something foody because i believe that the way to a man's heart is to fill his stomach.haha.Knowing that he doesnt likes super duppee sweet stuffs,i did dark chocalates mixed with biscuits.I can't wait to give him and i hope he likes it.

In the past, whenever i did something out of my own effort,i will require a return like i will asked myself if he/she deserved what i had done or what i did equals to what he/she had done for me.Thinking back,i felt selfish.You know what good deeds or something nice that you had did,you should not demand anything in return.

I also believe that God is actually quite fair to most people except those really pathetic people living on the other side of the universe.If you had gained something,you will definately lose something and vice versa.Life has been twisting here and there for me but he entered my world just before everything went berserk,is it coincidental or God just bestow him to me to go through the storm with me?I really wonder if he wasnt by my side all these while,what will i had become of?A mad girl?Or a girl that just cooped herself in the room and cried all day comtemplating sucide?

To sum it all up,im just thankful for the many months he had been with me for all this while and for being my bestest friend.

Happy 5th month!

2007-01-30T12:19:00.000+08:00

This is my creativity corner,guess how many pairs of earrings i have?

Checking out my new mirror.
See the pink lamp at the back,so pretty right?It's from dear.
Ok,this has nothing to do with anyting.
This is the red bag i had been eyeing on for months!
This is the heels im talking about.nice nice?
Arghh im so stress now,i f*cking dont know how to do the econs article.Now i end up resorting to cam-whoring.muhaha.I realised my blog has been too wordy recently so i shall reward my avid readers with pretty pictures of my new home and some of my newly bought stuffs.It took me a week to consider my home to be a home.I'm such a spoilt child!Err,but i know the pictures are not entirely all on my home,you know you need a pretty model like me to accompany it so...ok i admit im a narcissist.haha=p

2007-01-29T21:39:00.000+08:00

This is a drawing done by Phua An Qi,"artistic" isnt she?haha..bestie bestie,thank you!
Today is such a bagus day!muhaha.I guess the cheerful josephine is back.Today i was out shopping for my new year clothes.So now you know,if you want to make me happy,spend money on me!hahaha.

Today no marketing tutorial also.whoo,no more Monday blues.Daddy was so stingy,he gave me 26dollars to buy my clothes.What shit!26 can buy what?Sigh never mind la.I will remember who is sincere in buying me things and who is not.Then i met bay bay in town.Actually wanted to get a dress in forever21 but it is over my budget so i went to This fashion instead.Oh my God,I bought a dress for only 19.80.So cheap!I also bought a pair of white heels.ARghh..so chio.keke.I cant wait to wear and show dear how pretty i am in those newly bought stuffs.

Valentine's day is coming and i had thought of something already but it shall remain as secret for now.haha.Woo,3 more days and and it's our 5th month but Im not looking forward to it cos im looking forward to our 1 year instead.

Sigh,yesterday i was so pissed off with my parents.They went to unpack my stuffs.They even threw the present my ex student gave me.Imagine how sad i am.Even till now i nagged at them for touching my stuffs.Sometimes i wonder if daddy really loves me or he is just afraid that when he grow old there will be no one to support him so he finds all ways to win my heart.He always seems to push all the blame to mummy if something went wrong.And my poor mum complains about my dad all the time but still leaves food for him during the night.Is she stupid or she just love him too much?

Anyway,i shall not think too much.I cant wait for the chalet these weekends with my pretty Glitz.I pray that ah za can stay.She is such a poor thing!Parents are weirder than mine.Sigh.Oh ya,my econs project are still not touch,im dead meat.I will have to burn the midnight oil tonight.Ok good night for now!

I miss him..

2007-01-28T20:52:00.000+08:00

As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
Til the end of time forever
You’re the only love I’ll need

In my life you’re all that matters
In my eyes the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You’re the one that’s there for me

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you

Chorus:Imagine me without you
I’d be lost and so confused
I wouldn’t last a day, I’d be afraid
Without you there to see me through

Imagine me without you
Lord, you know it’s just impossible
Because of you, it’s all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can’t imagine me without you

When you caught me I was falling
You’re love lifted me back on my feet
It was like you heard me calling
And you rush to set me free

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you

Chorus
When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you oh
Chorus
I can’t imagine me without you

2007-01-28T15:25:00.000+08:00

Everything have been fine and im getting used to the new enviroment.Yesterday missed BA test cos i never study finishing but took a mc already.So i went to meet Karen for dinner at Marriott Hotel then headed to her working place.She ordered for me Lychee Martini.It doesnt taste good except that lychee fruits.Then i went with her and her collegues to the lastest bar at Siloso beach as there was an event going on there.I saw Dawn Yang,the famous blogger.whao,she is so pretty!!!

Then took a cab back.On the way home,i was feeling nauseous already.I think it was the martini and vodka that i drank.i think im really not suitable to drink.I promise i wont touch any alcoholic drinks anymore.Luckily,i met a nice taxi driver uncle whom insisted on waiting for my parents to come down then he will leave.i should had taken down the taxi number plate and commented to the head for his good excellent after service.

In between my sleep,dear came over and kept me accompany.Having him by my side made me feel so secure.I think i had really fallen deeply in love with him.I know he still loves me as much as he used to but i somehow feel different.He said im requesting too much from him that i dont even realise now.Am i?Or is it because i dont used to love him that much and now when i finally love him,what he does it's not enough already.Thinking back of the time when we are still friends but having feelings for one another made my heart races all over again.The time he bought the same fruit juice as me though he was wary if carrot and orange taste nice when blended together,the time when he bought mac muffin for me at 4a.m, the time when he asked me when can he cook fried rice for me, the time he allowed me to lie on his shoulders...How i wish we could rewind back to the time and experience it all over again.Wo zhen de hao ai ni...

2007-01-25T06:17:00.000+08:00

IM SO FAT!!!!

Today i looked into the mirror and i realised my face is so big now.I had gained weight already.I reflected on my eating habits for the past few months and it is super unhealthy.Ever since problems started surfacing,i turned to food for comfort and to forget about my troubles,i just kept eating.I can even skip meals just to eat chocalates.Oh my god!!!Why didnt anyone tell me that i have grown fatter?

I dont want to end up like a fat pig in primary 6.i dont want!i dont want!!!!

I must be slim,i must be!!!!

I am not giving excuses for myself already.It is time for me to return back to my healthy eating habits and regular exercise regime..

Sigh...

Yesterday saw ah tal and mk..hehe so glad to see them..thanks for dropping by..i miss u so much ah tal!!!

back to my books...bye..=(

2007-01-23T23:02:00.000+08:00

Today i spoken to kor kor over the phone about my difficulties and troubles im facing.Weeped again till my eyes were swollen and puffy.He too was telling me how much he had suffered since he was born.Sigh,I miss kor kor very much.=`(

I wish to apologise to my project mates for not contributing much for these past few days.I am so lucky to have these bunch of understanding classmates.They knew i am facing a crisis now and they did the work all by themselves without trying to pile the heavy burden im having now.Thank you very much!I will get back to track soon.

Just returned to my chalet from dear's house.Supposed to study but we ended up talking and playing with each other until he caused me to fall.haha.Dear said he was happy to see me back to my screw loose character.Laughing insanely for no reason and teasing him.hehe.I guess except him(including my glitz too) can make me really happy even when im down.I love you my an an.Good luck for your test tomorrow.

Now my parents are still discussing on how to divide the house to make a room for me.I know what they did were all for me but my mind is in a whirl.They doesnt allow me to stay with aunty Esther.I do not know how.My mum threathen to break all relation with me and my dad uses a strict tone to restrict me from leaving this chalet.I don't know how.Tommorow im going to consult the counseller and i hope she might be a help to me..I gonna get going and have some rest.Night...

2007-01-22T22:38:00.000+08:00

My internet access is back!Many things had happened for the past few days.It was the most painful period of my life.

On Friday, dear,ah tal and mk came to help me to pack my stuffs and see my house for the last time.Before that,ah mui came too.She did something really sweet for me.She did a memory book whereby she pasted all our old photos and wrote little messages inside,I read and cried while i slept for the last night there.

Soon,Saturday arrived.I woke up early and gathered all my stuffs together before dear's dad drove his lorry there.I sat at the back of the lorry looking at the once so bitter yet full of happy memories place.When reached,i finally saw my new home,it was...sigh i quickly went down and hid at the corner of the void deck and cried.Thanks to dear's dad,his friends,aunty Esther and bay bay for helping us out.Of course,the person i wish to specially thanks to is him,without him life for me will be totally worthless.

The first day at the new house was horrible,i cried throughout the day inpatiencely waiting for dear to come and bring me out.When he arrived,i immediately hugged him and told him to bring me back to Sengkang then to Punggol to find my friends.Ah tal came down and talk things round to me.Her warm embrace made me felt much better.Dear knew it was late so i slept at his house.Sleeping in his arms threw all my sorrows and pains away.I felt so safe.

But soon after the night,morning came,then night was soon to fall and my happiness meter starts to fall again,i hate to return back home but i had no choice.As he sent me home,tears dripped again.I just hope the journey home will be longer...

Today i was back to school.I tried to be happy but i just could not put up a smile.I cant focus on the tutorials too,my mind was elsewhere.After school,i decided not to return home though im extremely tired so i went to ah mui's house instead.Again,i poured out my problems to her and it always feels so comfortable after telling her.Worries were all gone when she is around.I finally got the appetite to eat.She even gave me money to eat.Though it is not much but her sincerity was really touching.Thank you my bestie!I will return you a million times of what you had did for me.

I had finally make up my mind.I decided to leave this place and stayed with aunty Esther.I believe staying there will make me happier,at least i have my own room,a house where i can really call home.I will settle my own living expenses by hook or by crook.I'm willing to bear all hardships.I cant live this place,it is too cramp and i dont feel like this is a home.

Thanks everyone who were there for me!!!

2007-01-18T23:10:00.000+08:00

Sorry guys,i must had frightened you all.I didnt meant to show my emotional side,i tried very hard to hold back my tears but it just fell.Anyway thanks for all the console.

The thought of my parents fighting over money matters hurted me.Im emotionally and mentally stressed out.My dad said one thing but did another and with my mum constant "reminder" to beware of my dad made me confuse.I really do not know who to trust,both words are equally convincing.My dad said he is buying a cupboard for me but instead my mum is paying.My mum said he is just trying to win my heart.She had already spent a lot on the installation and fixture of the new house yet my dad kept scolding my mum.Seeing my mum cried almost everyday makes me cry too.Because of the new house,she is ill now.

I was supposed to meet Angel today but i was totally moodless.Lying on my bed,i thought of the luxury im enjoying,the air-con,the queen sized bed,the spacious room and a two storey flat.I imagined myself in my new home,cramping myself in a partition room of a 1 room flat made me cry.I used to think all those things are nothing but when i compared it,it made a great difference.If you all are able to enjoy these,cherish and treasure it,you might not know what will happen.Money really create wonders.I now know the importance of money.When it comes to money matters,kinship is no longer around,everyone run far away from you.I have been too spendthrift,spending money unnecessarily.It is really time to change.

I may be experiencing all these misfortune but it may not be so bad afterall cos God sent him to stay by my side.I really hope i will grow up fast so i can work,earned a lot of money and move away from my parents.I cant wait to spend the rest of my life with him,to be his wife,to give him 2 adorable kids,to grow old with him.But i will not put too much hope on this dream,this vision,cause i always remind myself that happy things will always come to an end.I will just cherish everyone around me.Thanks for singing that sweet song to me,it just made me smile...:)

2007-01-18T00:02:00.000+08:00

There are many problems revolving in my head but i tried to hide my agony by putting on a brave front.I smile, laugh and try to be the always happy Josephine.But sometimes i could no longer take it and i just burst out and break down.Many times,I asked myself what if im not born into this world,will i be happier?But the thought of you changed my opinion...

You were the one who give meaning to my life.
You brought me out of darkness and show me the bacon of light.
You create miracles
You taught me to face my problems bravely
You love me for who I am
You bring me happiness
You cried for me
You show me the meaning of love

I know i had said a number times of thank you but whatever it is,i still want to thank you for every single thing that you had done for me.

You are my all, my everything...

I love you!

2007-01-15T18:37:00.000+08:00

I had so much to say today!

Yesterday,I went down to have coffee with my parents.I know it's weird that they can actually sat down together and enjoyed a cup of coffee,i guess they had became friends?I'm not sure.Then we chatted about certain stuffs and i ended up crying.Daddy told me to pour out whatever i have been keeping inside.I told him that they were selfish,causing the children to suffer along with them and i need a father to be with me as well.Also i said i cant catch up with my schoolwork and i wonder if i had enter the wrong course.As usual,his words never failed to console and comfort me.By the way for your information,my dad speaks like a politician,i swear!HAHA.

He said he will always be there for me no matter what and i should not always compare my results with my classmates.Everyone has different ability and i should be contented that at least i had pass despite the hectic problems im going through now.He even told me that if i really dislike my course,by all means just change,as long as i study something that i like,money doesnt matter.I felt so relief after hearing that.i guess daddy's words of wisdom are the only one that can solve every problem i have.

Actually,i had been troubled over the past few weeks over the course i choosed last sem.I'm still not wary about which course i really like.The course i choosed,general business has so much of mathetical modules especially accountings which you cant avoid even in year3.I worked so hard for the accounts paper but the end result was still a D,i tried to love this subject but it somehow doesnt like me.Sigh.I kept complaining to my mum how hateful accounts could be and i hate mugging for exams.Until yesterday,i thought of marketing(another course) but i had to see my result before i can determine if i want to choose it.Luckily today i went to approach my course manager and he said that there are still vacancies!!!He is so nice,he even gave me a month to think about it before making a decision.Soon after, it was marketing class and i can get to know my result.I was so nervous because i know that marketing is my last glimmer of hope.If i fail,i really dont know which business course suits me already.Then when i heard A,I jumped for joy.haha,i even hugged ah ting.She was so happy for me too.

Oh ya talking about wan ting.She is a really great friend of mine.She is smart,helpful,pretty and kind-hearted.She's like my PDA in school.I think i had relied on her too much.She is always by my side,giving me endless support.I wanna say thanks for being there!=)A month more and our class are gonna be separate,thinking about it,i feel really sad.My class are full of nice people.I heard about many backstabbing in poly but i had yet to experience it,i guess i must be one of those lucky ones.But who knows in the other 2 years?I think i will really miss wan ting a lot,Izyan too,Nadia,wanjun,jeremy and so on...Sigh..i hate separation..

Yesterday before i went to bed,i played Lin jun jie old album and i started thinking of the time when my mum was hospitalized and ah mui used to accompany me to visit her.Perhaps it's because i kept repeating his songs during that period so it reminds me of the time.And i started to miss my mui mui badly,my bestie.We are like super glued in the past but now somehow the glue isnt that sticky anymore.hmm,but no matter what she will always ranked the "NO.1 best friend" in my heart.

Today my 3 meals are all fruits because i felt so guilty gulping down 1 egg tart and half lao po bin which dear's mum bought for my mum and i.She is so nice right?She not only dote on me but also on my mum.haha.I love my future mother-in-law!!!hahaha.wahh so bhb.ai ya dont care,i will force dear to marry me even if he dont want.hehe,dear thanks for all your encouragement too,ai ni!I think i had gone mad already,ok i shall end here.byebye...

Josephine is a happy girl today!!!=)

2007-01-14T12:54:00.000+08:00

Sunday is back and today will be my rest day.Oh,not rest day,it should be my project and tutorial day.I must finish everything by today!

Before i begin my schwork,I shall recall what i did for the past few days.I was feeling blue because of my parents matter but now im okay already.Thanks my friends for all your concerns.Friday,im supposed to meet za at NYP to teach her chinese but there was a sudden heavy down pour and he was ill so i went to meet him instead.Knowing that going out will made me happier,he decided to bring me out.So we waited for the rain to stop but soon after it stopped pouring heavily,we went out.I kept insisting on sitting his bike and while on the way,it started to rain heavily.Dear who dotes me a lot gave me his raincoat to wear while he never wore anything to shield himself from the rain.The whole journey he was shivering and in between the trips,he never failed to ask if i was okay.I am deeply touched by his actions.

Even yesterday he brought me to town to shop with his family.It was quite fun.His mother's actions are damm funny.Like small kid like that.Including the sister,wah really bring the house down.haha.I realised they love to eat as well,they can eat a lot!But that's good cos im a great eater as well.haha.So we settled our dinner at Crystal Jade.We also did some shopping and dear's mum bought me a spag at Forever21!I felt so bu hao yi si sia.hmm..Going out with them really made all my worries gone.I felt so happy,maybe because i had lost this feeling of family warmness long ago and now when i feel it,it somehow comforted the little girl in me.I still remembered daddy used to drive us around,mummy and daddy will held hands together while i will lie on kor kor's shoulders and sleep till we reached our destination....

He is really good to me.Even when he send me home,he will make sure i sleep soundly before he heads home.I really hope to be a good girlfriend to him too.I even sent him a sms about the promises i made.haha,hopefully i will keep my words.Okay,blogged too much.I wanna say thank you dear for brightening up my day.Wo ai ni...

2007-01-10T23:59:00.000+08:00

Just previewed Kelly Clarkson because of you mtv video.It's not a new song but it is really meaningful.I cant help but cried while seeing the video.It reminds me of my parents...the many nightmares that happened a few years ago.

Splashing hot water,beating,shouting,threathening to jump off the building,chasing with a chopper,crying,raging...

Can daddy and mummy stop quarraling??

why they have to make me sad all over again when im happy right now.

i really admire children with complete family.

2007-01-10T11:28:00.000+08:00

Nothing much happened these past few days except that heart-breaking Monday. All was fine till my emotions ruled over me and i nearly ended a relationship so genuine, so hard to find but fortunately i was knocked into some senses with all his words and the pearly tears which i will never ever forget.I am truely apologetic by mentioning these two ugly words,i promised whatever happens i will not bring up these words again. It is a big blow to the both of us.

School was pretty much boring but with great classmates around, i had nothing more to rant about. Got back some of my results,as expected all the b and c.Well, i just got to buck up for the main exam.Sigh.I had slacken too much already.But really i do not have any motivation to study, i just wish to get a diploma and start working. I am just simple-minded or should i say traditional. Get a decent job, marry, have children and thats all.Im sure in this society not many woman would plan like this for their future.Hmm.However,this is the life that i want and im sure i will be happy with it.

Okay, time is running low. Im lefted with 10 days to actually take away all the memories i had here,i mean my home. Sometimes, i was wondering if it was nice for my mum to strike a windfall and maybe things will be much better.Anyway i had been neglecting God lately,my faith is not with him anymore..im just lost...hopefully i will get touch with him soon...

Take care everyone!

2007-01-07T11:19:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a relaxing,nice Saturday.Met up with Glitz,chilled out at Starbucks then followed by a movie.It has been so long since the 4 of us went out together.A date with them is always the one that make me look forward to .Maybe because i can show through my true-self...i can laugh as loud as the thunder,i can just shoot out whatever i loathe,i can tell them lame jokes yet they understand.hmm...Perhaps they are the only one(S) that understand me most.Rain or shine,they will always be the one i turn to first.

Angel,someone that are always there especially through my darkest period.A comfortable shoulder which i always like to lie on.Her laughter and insansity can make me laughs haywire.

Crystal,a demure looking girl but deep down she is more than what you can imagine,she is WILD!!!That's what i love about her.Lots of itsy bitsy tiny weeny secrets are said to her.Sharing things with her can make my adrenaline rush like a bullet train.

Syaza,though a friend whom i meet less often,she always try to make sure that whoever occurs some difficulties,she will be present despite her bad at words.Her sweet smile is enough to know that she is always there for you.

The mixture of them are just like 3 "need help hotlines" which i can call for different needs.=)

While on the way home,we met a pervert.He actually took pictures of us.It was so frightening.Really wish the police will nab him one day.Crazy babarian!!!Thanks God dear came to fetch me home.

Okay, no more outings,projects are waiting for me.

2007-01-06T12:34:00.000+08:00

Today it's a beautiful Saturday cos waking up in dear's arms seems nothing more blessful than you could ever feel.We broke the plan.Supposed to meet only on next Monday but ended up still seeing each other.Laughs!

Well, but one day of not seeing each other helped me somehow.Now,i'm not really missing him that much already cos i'm somehow contented that i had saw him not long ago.Isn't that a good thing?I guess so.haha.As the going says,"absence made one heart fonder"..it is so true,i must believe in it!

By the way,i'm moving this 20th.As first,after knowing that we got the rented flat,im very very unhappy but i had thought it through already.There's no point crying these all over again.It is just the matter of time only.I just had to got use to the new environment.I'm sure im not the only person to be sad,mum should be the one feeling more miserable than i do.A family she built just tarnished in a hand of some mother fucking bitch.Moreover,she had one or rather two ungrateful stepsons who doesnt even care about her existence.Sigh,i sympathised my mother.Why don't she just heed my grandma's advice,if not she wouldnt had suffered all these and born such a fiery tempered and unrespectful daughter.Please girls, don't ever marry a divorcee man,once bitten twice shy.

My mum and i will rise,rise from our fall.I promise to buy back a flat from Sengkang!

2007-01-04T00:42:00.000+08:00

I can't find any econs related articles!

I can't sleep!

I miss my glitz!(Friday please come quick!)

I am looking forward to Monday!

I am controlling...

LA LA LA..............

2007-01-01T22:54:00.000+08:00

Today it's the start of the new year and it's also the 4th month that dear & I are together.

Yesterday i was supposed to be on the bed resting but late in the afternoon i felt slightly better so i decided to go to countdown at Esplanade.Initially, I thought of meeting him but he had plans with his friends already so i went ahead with my cousin and her friend.We dined at some restuarant outside of the mall so we can actually catched the fireworks while enjoying our food and drinks.Spanish buffet,that's what we had and the price was of course costly.Thanks cousin Karen for the new year treat.!We must take our x'mas neoprint soon.

We chatted merely all about guys.They were saying Asian man are the most unromantic and laziest lover.Haha.I was nodding my head with absoloute agreement.They also said that guys will change after the chasing and honeymoon period which means they wont be as sweet or as nice as before.This point,i dont agreed with them because he still treats me as nice and i even said i wish to marry him.haha.Immediately they laughed and said im still in my fairyland and my needs and wants now may not be the same in the future ,besides that i have not even step out into the working life yet.This remark may sounds familiar to me but it somehow worried me.Right now,i may just yearn for his accompany and his tender love but in the future,i may want a guy that can provide me with lots of money,a big car,a luxurious house and the list goes on.This is where reality sets in,practical as what many girls claimed themselves to be.However,i believed that this is a test to see how fragile a relationship can be.

Mum and i accidentally came acrossed kor kor and his ex-gf letters.We both were giggling at those words that my brother had actually wrote to his ex-gf.We cant imagine that he can be so mushy.But i saw the date,it was the very beginning of their courtship.1st month and so on..One sentence he wrote made me ponder real deeply,"i hope you will accompany me through the journey of my life".I assumed that this sentence means he hope to be together till eternity but what's the end?They still broke up despite a long 8 years of relationship.Phew!Hmm.But I still believe in fairytale,i still believe that there is a "happily ever after" and i really wish that it will falls on me.

Well,the fireworks yesterday were amazing but i somehow wasnt feeling that happy because he was not by my side.I wanted to spend the new year with him and our 4th month together but i cant do so cos it had already promised his friends.So i hope that the next day he will give all his day to me but now he is back with his friends.It is so infuriating when he said he got to leave after a call from his friends.I mean the previous night,we did not spent the time together already and now we had barely spent half of the day together.If he were to leave because of his family,i wouldnt mind but...sigh.Im not being possessive but i just hope that he can at least leave his 1 day to me because it's our anniversary today.Anyway,thanks dear for the pretty bouquet of blue roses.Or maybe,i should just be contented that he at least remembered today and even gave me an unexpected surprise.Sigh,whatever it is,i should just take things easy and look on a positive perspective then life will be much happier.

I think i had blogged too much today,i will end here.Dear,whatever it is,i just wanna say I love you and thanks again for loving me..happy 4th month!

2006-12-31T12:05:00.000+08:00

Today is the 31st of December which meant tomorrow is the NEW YEAR of 2007.Whao!That's fast.Supposed to countdown today but the pathetic me just has to be sick on this perfect day.Sigh.

Yesterday,i returned home early from work because i was sneezing the whole day.I cant take it so i went back first.Thanks dear for fetching me back home though i kept insisting i dont want you to.Also thanks ah mui for taking the trouble to call the company for me and replacing me if not i had to work today le.Now,my nose is blocked.I cant smell what im eating.Sigh.

So,2007 is approaching.What resolution should i make?Shedding some weight?studying hard?Sigh again,bullshit stuffs.Always never make it,so demoralised.School is opening soon too,oh dear im bound to fail Bus stats..sob sob.

alright,shall end here.bye!

Oh before i end,HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!=)

2006-12-29T17:00:00.000+08:00

2 couples!
The girls of the day!
Dear can u dont be so extra???haha..no la no la muacks!
Alright alright,peck u on the cheek for the nice gift...
Arn't we cute?
Kissing my gift..hehe.
His gift,a nike T-shirt and a Video CD which i had created.
The pretty Precious moment glass ball that dear gave.
Some pictures of Christmas eve's and Christmas day...

2006-12-26T02:06:00.000+08:00

Merry christmas everyone!!!

Christmas has finally arrived and i realised my blog is soon to be a year old already.Blogging never seems bored to me at all, it kept all the little stories of my rollercoaster life.Soon,it will be 2007.

Regarding my previous entry about how dissapointed i am towards him,i wanna apologise.Very sorry my dear!Im really an irgnorance and silly girlfriend.The dinner and gift are equavilent to your hard work for 3 days.Sigh...Instead of being considerate,i gave you a cold shoulder and even spoke to you in an unfriendly tone.Orhh man...im such a detestable gf!The surprise you gave me made me guilty straight away and of course im also deeply touched as well.I really love the glassball that comes with the melody.Thank you very much for every single thing that u had done for me.I can't live without you too...

Well, he actually came to look for me after work yesterday and brought me to pasir ris fisherman village for dinner.Came to think about it,it was the first surprise he ever gave to me.haha i bet it must be my repititive whines that caused him to do all this for me.Anyway i really appreicate it a lot!Then we went to midnight mass together with my parents.Glad dear went to a catholic primary school in the past because at least he knew the prayers and roughly knew some of the rituals that we go through.I hope to walk the aisle with him hand in hand one day....haha so romantic can...

Then on x'mas day,we met up with our friends for a karokae session.We exchanged gifts with one another.Coincidentally i took crystal's and she took mine.I got a really cute handphone stand from her.Thanks!By the way im so glad that meng kang came.At least we get to better know him better cause he is my best friend's boyfriend and we ought to know him.haha.Nice chap and great vocal he has.haha.But my an an also bu lai ma..he sings "forever love" is ichiban de wor...hahaha...Mui and i also exchange gifts with one another.She bought me my favourite body shop lotion which i had been longing for.She is really my bestie..she knows me best.Juanie also gave me a card which written all her sincerity down,im deeply touched.Ai yo..im just so fortunate to have so many great friends around me.angel,crystal,siew juan,syaza....and so many other more...even an an,my bestest friend who is always there for me..i LOVE u all very very much...though x'mas this year is not spend with my family,im contented because u all made my world colourful..haha..

Daddy,mummy and kor kor...i really miss you all...as a family...

Tml is time to catch up with my projects..byebye..

2006-12-24T00:37:00.000+08:00

Why oH Why??? by Juwita Suwito

The moments I can’t pretend
The ‘sorry’s I should have sent
The thought of you being in despair tears my heart out right away
I just wasn’t prepared
Imperfection ? that’s what I am
Confusion just took its stand
I guess that I shouldn’t pretend to love you anyway
I won’t give up again

So tell me why oh why
Should there be a reason to love
Why oh why…
I don’t need another
I want nothing else but being with you
And with you I know why

The one thing I’ll take with me
The eyes that smile so tenderly
Every time I think about you
You make everything seem right
You make wishes come true
If only I knew what you needed was some love
I could have given you the best that you deserve
There's no one else I'd rather share my life than with you
Think of what's between us...
And love will help to guide us...

ps.very meaningful and melodious song...but sadly i cant find the link to put in my blog...:(

2006-12-23T23:48:00.000+08:00

Finally im back to work for Sony.Work was fine,the staffs were nice and approachable.But my feets were hurt because of the newly bought heels.

Initially,i was anticipating to knock off from work because i finally could meet him to his family's chalet.but...a call came and...hmmm..
Im trying hard to be understanding but i just cant feel his presence anymore.it seems like dissapointment always come after another.

so i went back myself,walking along the streets of orchard road and admiring the christmas lights all by myself.At that moment,i felt a sense of loneliness.I missed my dad and brother.So i decided to go to my uncle's x'mas party despite the strong disapproval from my mum.I really hate to lie to my mum and i really hate to be acting sneakily just to hide it from her.WHY??!!why must she refrain me from seeing my relatives.I feel really miserable.Being able to see my uncle and family just now made me really very happy.My mum only cares about protecting herself from being hurt and she doesnt think of me.

I need a shoulder to lie on but the one i really want to lie on is..i don't know...
i feel so dumb shedding tears just because of this.I dont want to depend on anyone now..the only person i want to love now is MYSELF...

ps.im sorry if my entries recently are all distraught,i dont wish to be down either...

2006-12-22T20:17:00.000+08:00

=((

I really don't know what's wrong with me.I know he works is to earn extra money but im just not understanding enough.I'm not angry,just feeling sad that he cant be my side as much as he used to.I also dont know why will i react like that.It doesnt seems to be like me,im not like that in the past.Im known for being understanding but why?Crystal said the reason is i had loved him too deeply already.Sigh.I wonder if it's a good or bad sign...

I rather he dont buy or pay for me anything so at least he can has more money for himself and more time for me...Seeing him working so hard make my heart aches too.

Im sorry for not being an understanding gf..

i think i shall turn in early tonight so i wont miss him so much..good night!

2006-12-22T13:22:00.000+08:00

I MISSES DEAR!!!

I yearn for his hugs,his kisses or just him holding my hands...=(

2006-12-22T00:35:00.000+08:00

One word to describe today's mood,S-H-I-O-K-KKKK!!!
Supposingly,ah cheong was to treat us lunch but he was sick.Don't know he pretend or what but anyway i enjoyed my day with mui today!
It has been months since i had shopped with ah mui.It's so fun can.We are such bestie that everywhere we go,people mistook us for sisters and we even eyed on the same stuffs.So in the end,we bought a similar blouse and necklace.muhaha!
Treated her japanese lunch at Cine,cheap and nice,must try.Then met my dad in the late afternoon and he bought me my x'mas present.
Very very happy today bcos i had done lots of shopping.haha.I cant wait for the next shopping trip with ah mui!hee=)

alright,shall unpack my newly-bought stuffs..yippee..goodbye..

2006-12-19T21:28:00.000+08:00

Alright,feeling seriously bored at home so my itchy fingers started moving when i saw my curler.I decided to practice curling my hair and ta dah...think i look quite nice with curls..should i curl next year??hmm..btw im going shopping with my daddy tml!!yoohoo..i wanna buy heels and bag!!!!

2006-12-19T19:25:00.000+08:00

Today is shitty boring!Sigh.Went to PS with dear for some waffle treats at Gelare.It was my treat!hehe but dear seems to love the oreo chessecake more than the waffles cos he said its too sweet for him.Then we walked around for awhile and headed back to his house.Today i just dont know why im feeling so moody,i just feel like snapping at anyone.in the end,dear was the one whom suffered.hai yo,why am i like that????I really must change my f*cking attidude.Yesterday i gave mum a cold shoulder cos i was really hurted by what she had maligned me the previous night.wtf!!!even if it's true,she was the one who caused me to be way i am now.Sigh she even cried to my bf.I know i should understand her plight but im just like the meat in between two sandwiches.DILEMMA!Life seems so f*ck up,can anyone spice up my life????!!Really not in mood for any upcoming christmas or whatever ..decided to work on eve to numb myself so as to tell myself that x'mas isnt a big deal.I used to regard x'mas as a very important occasion for me bcos im born into a Roman catholic family and we celebrated every year without fear but now............shall not mention it further,my shattered heart has yet to recover.. sign,feel like watching Polar express now...to remind me to hear the bells ring again...:(

2006-12-16T22:34:00.000+08:00

Oh man,my gum has been hurting since morning and it has yet been healed.i wonder what's wrong.

Today i went out with mummy to Changi Village cos she had the crave for beef kwey tiao.Again,i ate my favourite sliced fish soup but i could not managed to finish it cos of my painful gum.:( After dinner,we walked around and mummy bought me a polka dots spag..happy happy!hehe.She still wants to buy more for me as my x'mas pressie.Oh yes talking about x'mas,i now then realised that its coming.Time really flies!And im not really looking forward to it as much as i do in the past.I guess i had all grown up,any festival seems like any other ordinary day to me.Besides,this year im not spending it with my relatives or rather this year onwards.It's really sad that things turn out this way.But im looking forward to spending x'mas with him..hehe

I did not meet him today and im already missing him hell lots!He must be enjoying his buys..hehe happy for him.He got such loving mother who dotes on him so much!Well my mum dotes on me too la(say as though my mum no good like that,haha),it's just that she got no money if not im sure she will buy me lots of things.Dear dear if u r reading this,i wanna let u know i misses u real bad and i misses u scratching my back for me..:(

ok sleeping time now.im learning to sleep early cos sleeping can really revitalize oneself.By the way im pimple-free now!!!yoohoo!hehe see..really must sleep..k la go le..bye!

2006-12-15T20:36:00.000+08:00

Fed up, frustrated and sick!That's what im exactly feeling now.Or maybe im just too tired.I just could not stand my mum.I told her umpteen times not to bring any chocalates or pastries home cos i dont wish to be tempted by these unhealthy food.I know it's all in your mind and your own willpower to control this temptation but when someone place the thing you love just right infront of u almost everyday,your resistance to it will soon get weaker and weaker.We are all human beings,i mean who dont give in to temptation,even priest do!So the only way to avoid it is by not looking at it but mummy dont get it.Sigh,mum i know you love me but you love in a wrong way.Do u wish me to grow as big as a sumo wrestler then u will stop.I tell you all how frequently she brings,monday brownie,wednesday tau sar pia and today CHOCALATES!:(

A few days ago,i also had a small tiff with my mum.She is the most selfish person.When i told her my dad wants to bring me out for a x'mas shopping,she actually forbidded me to go.Even the relatives from my dad's side,im not suppose to have any relationship with them anymore.The reasons are she wants me to hate my dad just like she do and she blames all my relatives for the cause of the separation.Mummy,6 months of cold war with daddy was the most miserable period in my life,why must you let me bear all this suffering again.I know my dad did her wrong but the thing is between her and him so why must she drag me in and make me feel so pressurised.I love u mum but i love daddy as well,please dont seperate us again.Crying in the lonely night all by myself is one thing i hate most....

Today was the last paper.Jam at the expressway ot of the sudden and i was late for 15minutes.Nadia was worst,30mins,dont cry gal,everything is over!Sigh,im bound to fail today's paper.After exam,i went straight to ah mui's house.As usual,we updated on each other life(s).Always feel so comfortable after telling her all my woes.She's the only one who understand me most.We also browsed through our neoprints that we took over the past few years.Laughing at each other silly poses and weird hairdos and missing the times when the 2 of us will meet up every friday to town.Those days were the perfect moments.Memories get richer and richer over time.Then ah cheong fetched us to hougang mall to meet mr wu.Haha,today is meeting teachers day.Missed ah cheong a lot!Mr wu brought the both of us and syaza to eat Siam kitchen.We ate buffet but you know how it was served,16 different dishes just came in a row.We were all stunned and trying really hard to finish it.Mui and i felt bloated after it but it was quite worth it la.Mr wu is a nice man,he still looks as suave as ever..haha.

Everything in my house are faulting,first is the tap,then the vaccum cleaner and now lights..what's next?Mum said she gonna buy a broom,broom???omg,i never felt so poor in my life before.cheer up Josephine,life will turn for the better, i believed.I think in a house,a man is very important bcos when it comes to fixing of things,they come in handy.haha and luckily dear helped me.Thank you!Misses him now..he seems so busy recently.Guess i must find my own activities soon and it is to WORK!!!Next week im gonna work back for sony,i need cash!!!Good night for now!

2006-12-13T15:02:00.000+08:00

haha im blogging for the second time today becos he did something that touched me and even made me smile till now.

Actually i was late for the test because he overslept but i did not blame him cos it's supposed to be his rest day after studying for his test yet i requested him to send me to school early in the morning.He must be really worn out thats why he overslept.I should have gone to school myself.hmm lazy lazy gal.Im sorry too!When he knew i couldnt complete my test in time, he was so apologetic about it and kept apologising numerous times.I dont think many guys in this planet will apologise this much bcos many of them are simply too egoistic and i despised such people!Thanks God he is not those kind.:)

When i said i had not taken my lunch, he insisted on buying for me and asked me what i wish to eat.I jokingly said that i missed the fish bee hoon at Changi Village and he really went all the way there to buy it for me and brought it to my home.Tell me how can i don't love this silly boy of mine?Though he had bought me many expensive things before, this 3 dollars fish bee hoon is the best gift i had ever received from him bcos the trouble he took and his thoughtfulness is something money cant buy.

Thank you my 99.9999...% perfect boyfriend!=)

2006-12-13T11:18:00.000+08:00

This is the best picture after 20 shots i took,the rest really cnt make it..sigh..
Can you spot the dark circles and heavy eyebags?
EgRRRReee!!*angry*Please return back my radiance!!!
Today is such a rotten day!I was late for my test causing my dearest classmates to worry for me and i got no time to complete the MCQs.Anyway its alright la cos i dont intend to get an A.Finally im left with 2 papers to go.Well,accounting was as usual,sucks!marketing,i lost 14marks,also sucks!Sigh.Going to poly makes me feel so inferior,it seems like i always ranked last in class,I just cant seems to catch up.

Just now on the way home,the stupid damm bus got some problem,it keep stopping in the middle of the road.Nearly freaked me out!Thanks God im safe back home to be able to blog right now.

I knew whats the remedy for the zits on my face already,it's to get ENOUGH SLEEP!!!I was wondering why my pimples cant stop popping out despite my period was over and i followed the correct routine of washing my face.Then i realised its bcos i had been sleeping late for these past few weeks.Last night was worst,i never catch a wink at all,i actually burnt the midnight oil till the time for me to go school.Now,my face is super shag.two dark circles are damm bloody obvious now.No matter how much concealer i used also made no difference.I know now why they call it beauty sleep.Besides deteoriating my appearance,it affects my health too.Im feeling so weak and warm now.Guess its really time for me to replenish some sleep before i study for tomorrow's paper.Good night!Bon nuit!

2006-12-10T14:41:00.000+08:00

See the cupboard at the back?Its my motivation corner but no use de..haha
Right now its 15minutes past 3 and i have yet to study.Oh dear...PLEASE GOD!!!GIVE ME SOME MOVTIVATION PLS!!!...Okay if 3 i never start studying,im going to pop out more pimples.

Well well well, though im so unmotivated but i still did my revision la.Especially ACCOUNTS.wtf!Shall not mention this module again,make me goes really mad.I really wonder how those accountants can stand their jobs,everyday they are faced with figures,debits and credits,the piles of paperworks never seems to end..really can go bonkers la!I promise next year i will choose a course that does not require any accounting..Eek!I really cant wait for this to be over.I wanna work and go for my retail therapy.I got lots of things to get!!!

Hehe..had been meeting him quite a lot recently or should i say almost everyday.well,its not doing us good.Its too distracting!Friday,he came to my house to study together but nothing seems to get into our brain.Instead i did for him a mini facial.haha.it's so fun!Exfoliating,yogurt mask,removing whiteheads..wooo sounds so shiok huh..haa.Then yesterday was worst.I kept pursuading him to go cp to study but i ended up shopping.muhaha.I finally bought a foundation and strawberry yogurt mask.The foundation is so expensive,50!arghh..xin tong!Then after that we went to his house to study and had dinner with his family.After the hearty meal,we walked with Qq and Panda round punggol and we past by our school..making us really reminise the old days..so happy!Anyway, i feel so great to have dear around..alright i must du shu le!ah jose jia you wor,dear also must jia you!!!everyone jia you jia you jia you...

2006-12-08T00:33:00.000+08:00

Damm,today i did not touch any of my books cos the whole afternoon i was sleeping like a log.Just changed my braces and its ultimately painful!I had a hard time eating my dinner.Well,school today wasnt that boring afterall bcos Ting and i were chatting all the way in class.I really enjoyed talking to her,we always burst out into loud laughter.Having her in school lighten up my poly days!=)

Felt that my hair was extremely long so i decided to call my "fairy godfather" for help.Haha.And of cos my wish was granted immediately.He came to find me after school and brought me to Eugene's house for a haircut.His mum cut for me.I really have lots of splitends that it's impossible to remove everything.Guess its time for me to give my hair some treatment.hehe.Dear and Eugene's mum kept conversing in cantonese and i had no idea what are they talking.But its so fun listening him speak,he sounds so ke ai.Actually i quite like cantonese, i used to learn by buying the language book and tape but..im always ban tu er fei thats why i learnt nothing much.But definately i know one verse "ngoh oi lei..an an"
haha..

k le..i gonna sleep awhile and start my revision soon.ACCOUNTSS!!I HATE U!sigh..goodnight everybody..

ps.happy birthday mr.Gundu sami!haha hope u noe who u are..enjoy!=)

2006-12-05T19:35:00.000+08:00

Sigh,im so sad now,very very sad. My whole face is full of pimples.Yesterday it wasnt that bad but when i woke up this morning,i realised its even worst.I think these few days i had been sleeping late and not drinking enough of water.Arghhh!WTF!Can anyone understand my feelings?I guess only ah mui knows how i feel..sigh i miss u gal!I miss the days when i can see u everyday,i miss when i can whine and complain to u about anything,i miss when im sick and u came to my house to take care of me,i miss when we will go out every weekend,i really miss u BESTIE!!!Because of this i skipped lectures and he started nagging at me.I know he nags at me is for my own good but i just cant stand people nagging at me so i hang up his phone.Im extremely apologetic about it.I feel very bad after that.Really really sorry and i miss you too...=(

2006-12-05T00:17:00.000+08:00

see la,say study then doin what???cik cik...
wah!!my dear so chio hor??my hao jie mei..hahahaha
these are dear's lao po(s)..DA lao po is ME!!!xiao lao po is his bike.haha
Finally a picture of the world's loving couple!blah!=)
Mid-sem tests are nearing and im still not prepared.Instead im indulging in a taiwan drama recently called tian wai fei xian.SUPER NICE!haha.Yeahh..love story again..i love romance.hehe..i miss my dar dar so much now.

Last weekend,i spent the whole of my time with him.On saturday,when i was craving for roti prata,he brought me to Jalan kayu to eat.We ordered kambeng soup!hehe didnt know dear like it too but not really nice.hehe but we still ate till damm full.Then we went to pasir ris park for a stroll.We played the swings there.Its so nice spending time with him.after that we went to meet my daddy for a talk.Finally,we are able to sit down together to have a heart to heart chat.:)Dear then brought me to seletar dam to slack with his friends.i think im really a pig,i cant stand staying late,i will doze off.Besides,its all about guy's stuffs.They kept talking about bikes and cars then back to bikes and cars again.so boring!haha.But i still enjoy going out with him.lalala...Yesterday we were supposed to study together but dear was too distracted by me because he cant take his eyes off me..hahaha..alright sure end here..i love my boyfriend lots lots lots..muacks!:p

2006-12-02T16:36:00.000+08:00

It's me with the bday gal!=)
Her seafood pasta!!Look yummy right?haha
So pretty!!!
All of us!
The babes...hehe
Bday gal with the 2 boys!
My 2 bestest friends..feel so xin fu standing with them.
Dear and i..Yesterday he told me that im pretty.I feels so happy after hearing it..haha..
Lastly,its me with my mui mui...

Happy 18th birthday CRYSTAL!

We celebrated ah tal's birthday yesterday.It was supposed to be 30Nov but of coz on this special day her kang kang celebrated it for her so we celebrated for her yesterday.We went to have dinner at Breeks again!But hers was at harbour front.Food were sumptous as usual but the cake we bought for her was quite horrible.I felt like we are eating more whip cream than blueberries.Yucks!i hate whip cream,reminder:dont buy cakes from breadtalk.

Crystal looked pretty yesterday.She had her hair curled which made her looked very sophisticated.Birthday girl always looks best!After dinner,we headed to Vivo for some window shopping.Bought yummy chocalates from Marks & Spencer using the "class" funds.haha.We didnt buy any presents for her but we gave her money to buy her favourite Crumple bag.Really hope she enjoy this day with us...once again,happy birthday crystal...=)

2006-12-02T01:58:00.000+08:00

Happy 3rd month!

It was our 3rd month yesterday.How time flies!I bought a pair of teddybear keychains for him & myself.So sweet of me huh?haha.While he bought me 2 bars of belgian strawberry chocalates and sweets.For the whole night, i was complaining to him and comparing him to my friend's boyfriends.It's so funny!I wonder why some girls are just not contented with what they have.Actually i was whining about him not being romantic enough & he does not know how to give surprises.All girls love surprises don't they?Even if he were to do me an extremely ugly handwritten card, i will still be happy coz it's him that made it.However after i thought of all the things he had done for me, i came to a realisation that i should be contented with what i have.I rather have an unromantic boyfriend than a boyfriend who doesnt care a damm shit about you.No one is perfect,so is he and so am i.So, from now on i will not compare him to others coz he can only give me what others can't and that is his unconditional love.Being his girlfriend is the luckiest thing that happen to me this year.Guo an, I love you...只要和你一起就够一辈子我要做你的女孩

2006-11-28T23:17:00.000+08:00

Jojo feels happier each day.Today i went to meet my dad.Before that i had a French test.It was neither simple nor difficult.Just hope i can pass.Back to the meeting with my dad,ya at first i was afraid i had nothing to talk to my dad but the thankfully it didnt turn out this way.We actually talked like how we used to speak in the past.I tell him all my stories from head to tail and he pass me some comments or advices if needed.I feel somehow relieved because i can finally pour everything out of my chest that i had been wanting to let my dad knows or listens.Through out my whole life, my dad has always been the best confidant.hehe.I had also found out something that my dad has kept from me when i was in pri and sec school.He actually came to my school for a spot check every month.OMG!No wonder he seems to know my progression in school.The truth was revealed because he came to my school so often that the girls in my school actually remembered him and called out to him when they saw him on the streets.haha.My daddy really do cares about me.He still puts a photo of me in his wallet.I guess i had hurted him really deeply.Im so sorry daddy.

Surprisingly when we talked,he asked me about an an.My dad were full of praises for him.I mean i have not even officially introduced anan to him yet my dad can see that he is a nice boy.He kept asking me about his family,studies and blah blah blah..I think parents can really see through a person clearly,uh but it's still too early to comment on anything la,maybe things might change in the future.Hello,im only 18,i still have a long road ahead of me.haha.But!!!...for now, im extremely 100% sure anan is truefully good to me and everyone can see that.=)

I hope my pay will not delay again.I got lots of things to get.
-a white Bebe off-shoulder(been eyeing on it 4 damm long!)
-a pair of black m(phosis slips-on
-a white hangbag for outing...[thats all for my shopping,cant imagine i only want to get 3 things.haha]
-treat an an to Gelare
-buy little x'mas pressies for my loved ones esp my an an
-give mummy some money(promise i must!)

I miss these following people badly.
Desiree AI REN(e doggy made me miss her so much),my ah mui(so much things to share with her),tal tal(wanna hear her love stories),za za....

2006-11-26T17:37:00.000+08:00

On Friday, my dad gave me a call and when i talked to him, i nearly cried but i controlled my tears. Then yesterday i bumped into him at compass point. Seeing my dad made me really happy but i somehow felt that we had became distant.I cant seems to get back to the time whereby i am able to speak openly to him,everything seems so formal now.I tried to avoid looking into my dad's eyes because i knew if i did,i will cry again.Anyway,everything has been really smooth for me,nothing bad happened.Now mummy and i just lead our own life.She cooks for me while i washes the plates, she irons and hangs my clothes while i vaccums and mops the floors.How i really wish this house will be ours forever.

Money can really determines one's happiness. Yesterday, i went for a movie with an an then after that we went for some window shopping but after walking around,i became extremely moody and listless.Before that, an an was also feeling moody.I was fraustrated of myself,i was thinking why i will end up in this kind of situation whereby im so poor till my wallet only left a few coins and why must i scrimp whenever i had the money.Seriously, i avoid going out now because i knew if i see something i like and i cant buy, i will feel really damm down.i know im making it sounds like im making a mountain out of a molehill but shopping has always been my love.Imagine the feeling of losing a love one.Sigh.I think im really too pampered.My parents used to get what i want and now when they cant provide me, i felt lost.Because of this matter,i PMSed and i knew anan was tolerating me but he never once tried to lose his temper on me.=)And this is one point that makes me love him most.Then i apologised but he told me he understands and before that an an was also moody too because of this.The funny thing is when im happy,he was moody and the next moment when im moody he was happy so we took turns to pacify one another.haha zhen you mo qi.Money, money, money is the root of all evil...

Sian,tutorials not done and projects are suffocating me.Exams are nearing too.Damm shit!i hate the word "study"!And now,back to my project!

2006-11-23T00:52:00.000+08:00

Guess what?Im had been laughing and smiling the whole day.It feels so good to be happy!I promise i would not let my family matters to affect me already.Blood is thicker than water??BULLSHIT!Now i just wanna love myself more than anyone do.Even if im sad, i must not show it out.I must not fall ANYMORE!!its enough!

Alright, the first thing that cheer me up is my beloved classmates.They are so f*cking Sweetttt lahhh!!!They actually chipped in money and bought for me a box of chocalates.They even choosed my favourite white and milk chocalates and gave me a card,it wrote:"hey girl, we noe you're goin thru a difficult period bt we wan u to noe tat we r rite behind u all the way."I was so touched then.I still thought of skipping school today but now im really lovin school.Thank you for all the encouragement!!!wan ting,izyan,jlai,nadia,wanjun and lots more..i luv ya all...haha

Second thing was dear and i went to watch "step up".i had been longing to watch this movie.Really thumbs up for this movie!I love the blending of hip hop and ballet dance..so cool!Whatever i want to see or do,an an is always there to grant my wish,my fairygodfather.haha!He even bought for me something sexy,uh uh,shall not reveal it here,its a secret between us.Hehe.I love EE GUO AN!

Lastly,i got into the course i want.General business!!!yoohoo..i must get into tourism,i had already miss a chance and im not gonna miss it again.Shit,its pretty late and i have yet to sleep.Tutorials are not done but i promise to do it tml before i head for school.okay,i gonna ciao.Nights!

2006-11-21T21:24:00.000+08:00

I miss an an a lot.I wonder if i can get to see him today.i had not seen him for just a day yet im missing him so much already.Normally it takes me a few days or more for me to miss him but now i misses him till i can imagine him sitting beside me.I skipped school today.Didnt had the mood to study.I just feel like staying at home alone watching tv and laughing to myself.The house seems quieter and empty now...im so unuse to it but i promise i will get use to it soon!Today i done a little housework as well.No more daddy around so i gonna help my mummy to lighten her burden alittle.Now i get to really experience the life of an only child and a child with a single parent.It doesnt feels good but i still gotta accept it.This is fated and i cant change it.Alright, time for bed,Au revoir!=)

2006-11-20T18:47:00.000+08:00

I wonder if it is coincidental or the telepathy that caused the 4 of us to wear spectacles yesterday..:)

It's the second day of my new life.Yesterday was the first day and i managed to pull through the day with the accompanying of my boyfriend and friends.During that treadful night, i was awaken by my elder brother who was throwing things around the house and making noise as he does not knew that his things had moved and he was supposed to shift to my aunt's place.His frightful voice made me weeped the whole night.I smsed Angel hoping she could pop by my place and accompany me for the night but unfortunately she wasnt feeling well.However,the next morning she came to my house and brought me lunch.She even called Crystal and Syaza along.When i knew that they are coming, i felt really happy because i had my loved ones to accompany me for the day.Sadly, the minute they came i broke down and cried again because i had a bad quarral with my second brother over the phone.My heart sank again.The trauma never seems to end.But with Angel around, she still managed to put a smile on my face.I just feel so safe with my three bestest friends.We bought practically all the junk food up to my house and ate while watching TV.After that Guo an came to join us.At that moment, i just felt so lucky to have them by my side,a caring boyfriend and 3 sweetest friends.Even when they had lefted, Angel called me profusely just to ask if i had taken my dinner.Such friends are close to extinction.

Then after much persuasion by dear, i decided to go to his house for dinner.When I cried and told him that i cant experience fatherly love anymore,he embraced me and told me that he can give me both boyfriend and fatherly love as well.Though it sounds so silly but it really melts my heart.He makes me feel loved all the time.Sometimes, i felt that its really a wrong time for me to have a boyfriend now because i seems like a burden to them.I throw tantrum unnecessarily and im a crybaby all the time.Sigh.

Anyway, i just wish to thank them for being around and I will learn to be strong and be the cheerful Josephine everyone used to know....

2006-11-18T22:05:00.000+08:00

My daddy has left.I have another new adjustment to make.Im hurt and seriously hurt.

Daddy used to wait for me if i ever return home late,
daddy and i used to cook porridge together,
daddy and i used to watch da chang jin together,
daddy used to wash my dishes without fail,
daddy used to give me advices and encouragement whenever i faces problem, daddy used to scratch my back before i go to bed,
daddy used to compliment how pretty i am,
daddy used to tell me bibles stories,
daddy daddy daddy why must you leave me?

From tommorow onwards, i got to start living a life without a dad by my side.Im feeling so devastated now.I got no mood for anything.I really regretted not talking to my dad, i realised i had hurted him so much and myself.If a packet of char kueh tiao could make him happy,i hope a 100 packet of it could bring him back.

i want a father, a mother and a brother staying happily together...

"Try to remember" is the song daddy teaches me to sing...

2006-11-18T13:07:00.000+08:00

All my good friends,presenting syaza,crystal,siew juan,joseph,guo an and tian seng..=)
The 3 machoS..joseph looked so buey song sia..haha
finally joseph is smiling..
the glitzZz?...missing another person,ah mui where are you??:(
libra,sagi and leo..the 3 signs which friendships are linked!!
my childhood friend and family andddd with my act cute mum..she's afraid of camera!!haha
so poor thing,eat leftovers coz come late..haha.
ah za is promoting H2O..
oOoO..sAyang SAyang...
lets smooch!!!!
Gal friends of mine!!!~~
kawaii neh!!!dear n i cam whoring along the corridor..
S.H.E...errr..no..should be S.J.C...HAHAHA
knew each other since birth..but it turn out to be one super clever and one super stupid...and the stupid one is me but she still gt me "jie"..haha so sweet..
lovely threesome..
my pretty and greedy best friend..always binge on my food!!!haha
Im very happy!Thank you all for fufilling my wish of having a little celebration at my house.Though some of you cant make it, im still glad that most of you still came.Thanks dear for helping me and my mum out by clearing the dishes and capturing for these beautiful memories.haha.Thanks ah tal for coming down straight after school and help me out with the preparation.Also,the person that i wanna show my outmost gratidude is my dearest mum.She helped me with this gathering, helping me to buy and cook the stuffs for my friends.Even though we are already so down,she still does all that she can to fufill my this last wish.I really appreciated it a lot.Without my mum, i really dont know what kind of Josephine will i turn out to be.The love that she gave me is beyond measure. 世上只有妈妈好有妈的孩子像块宝投进妈妈的怀抱幸福享不了...

It wasnt a big feast so my mum just prepared some spagetti and finger food.Luckily there wasnt any leftovers because my childhood friend helped me to finish it all up..haha!Actually i wanted this gathering is because i wanted all my good friends to spend this last moment with me here.hehe.however im so sad that ah mui cannot make it,she was so ill suddenly.It seems so incomplete without her, our kai xin guo.Anyway im glad gabriel did turn up=) Afterall he also did contributed to part of my life journey..hehe.I really love all my friends.I really hope even if i had shifted to somewhere far away from them, we will not be distant or they wont forget that they know a Josephine...sigh..ok i shall end here..thanks once again!

2006-11-15T20:41:00.000+08:00

Im back.School is boring and i had missed a number of lectures already.Shit!My motivation level is dropping again.Even when im in school,my mind is not with the teacher but with someone else...haha.I always try to remember what i had spoken with an an in sec school times and what he did,like the way he walked into the parade square with his pants almost dropping,adjusting his earstick in his enlarged earhole and reading monotonously on a paragraph of comprehension when asked to do so by our english teacher.It was pretty hard remembering coz at that time i wasnt attracted to him and vice versa.But whenever i remembered something, i will sha xiao coz those little things that he did seems so ke ai to me now.I think my liking for him has grown stronger and stronger that i misses him now.The thought of being single no longer exists in my mind coz he makes me believe that being in love can be as fufilling and fun.一个人也需自由,两个人而感动,大过天空,喜怒哀乐,统统拥有,不让你恨留I love you!Je suis amourese!

2006-11-13T22:02:00.000+08:00

she cute little juan juan..keke..
ah juan and i at bugis..

ignore the background..just focus on me!!!haha
oooo..my yummy salmon pepper lunch..all thanks to dear who brought me to eat..had been craving for it for a long time..
my mum n i were trying to capture one another..she hao lian liao..coz got camera phone already..
im holding on to our all time favourite"ice mocha"..yum yum
this guy is sean..the guy who is crazy over nike shoess!!
ah huh!the this here is call JLAI!!!!the one that an lian my wan ting!!!hahaha
wahh so fierce for what wor??wanna fight??
my anan looks happy leaning on me..
after cutting my frindge for free..thanks to dear..haha
"you are on candid camera"haha..took dear secretly..look like pig..hahaha
with bday gal
with ting dear
with izy sayang..
Wonder why my face is so white!
I shall post some pictures that i took over the week.

2006-11-11T11:17:00.000+08:00

Oh my God!I puked in the middle of the night for just half(or rather just a few mouthful) bottle of carlsberg.I cant believed im such a weak drinker.Just a few sips and i felt my body getting warmer and warmer and head started spinning.It really doesnt feels good after puking.Till now im still having a slight hangover.oh dear,i must learn how to drink!!!Well, i went to one of the club at clark quey with Karen after dining at an american restuarant.The music were great.Gosh, and the portions of the food are damm huge,even when i shared it with Karen,i still felt damm full.Its my first time eating blue chesse and it tasted so horrible but the mussels were lovely.I love good food!It's always my cousin that brought me to such places to dine and she can really teaches me to enjoy life to the fullest.OoO..I love hanging out with my coussiieee!!!She is also the only relative that encouraged me to pursue my aspiration.I can still remember this sentence that she told me yesterday"you must always put yourself infront of others then your life will be happy!" it's so true la,why must i think of others.Its my own life, i decides for myself.=) No ones gonna restrict me!!!

oh ya,before meeting my cousie,i actually went for a window shopping with siew juan.She seems to change quite abit.she's not as cheerful and chirpy as before.I guess she is still struggling hard to adapt to an independent life.Sometimes,i just feel that im quite fortunate,although i dont have a lot of allowances but at least i still have unlike her.hmm..May God bless her.Yesterday i really controlled myself from spending except from spending on ai ren's belated gift.This is such a sucky feeling...going out yet not buying anything for myself.I saw a few tops i like very much but..none is in my closet..sigh!alright shall not whine anymore,back to my bed.Ciaos!

2006-11-08T22:06:00.000+08:00

come come ah ting,let me give u a kiss!
someone bullied us...so scared!!!!
Stupid funny faces!!!hahaha...
ah huh..finally a decent picture...
my 2 beloveds...
the best pic of all!my favourite!hehe
I love school days now though i still dread attending lectures the whole day long.I love my polymates too!Lately, ah ting,Izyan and I have been hanging out together a lot.I guess both of them are my closest friends in school.There are so much to talk about when im with them.Though ah ting seems small in size, she's actually like my da jie jie whom helped me a lot in my studies and gave me advices when im upsat.While Izy shares a lot of similarities with me and she really understands me well.Though its just the starting of 2nd sem, it seems to me that we are going to part soon.We are going to choose our diploma soon and all of us have different interest so i bet we wont be in the same class anymore.Sigh..however, they will always be save in ah jose's "memory card" and it will be inerasable.haha.This whole week,we done a lot of cam-whoring.Everyday take and take..so zhi lian..haha ok i shall upload some of it..=)

2006-11-07T22:23:00.000+08:00

MU HA HA HA!Hey people,please call me the BEST TEACHER!!!Say it loud, B-E-S-T T-E-A-C-H-E-R!!!!!!!Im in such a high spirit when my mum told me that my student actually has a Distinction for Maths and B for English.English has always been his weakest subject but he did it!Oh mine!but sadly his chinese fail and i doesnt know why.His parents and i always have high confidence in his Chinese but he actually flunked it.I think its partly my fault too,i focused too much on the other 2 weakest subject and neglected his best one.Anyway im glad that overall he did well.Im a happy teacher!So anyone wanna hire me?fees are negotiable.hahaha..

There will be a secondary school classmate gathering next week.I hope that my last celebration at Sengkang will be a memorable and splendid moment for me.I thank you God for giving me such fabulous butch of classmates whom i spent my teenage years with.You guys rocks!

Ps.Ah mui, good luck for your 'O's paper tml.Do well huh!Give me at least a B3!!

2006-11-06T22:41:00.000+08:00

看着瞬间
别让它再流浪
从前我太是因悲伤
你的出现在无意中
却深深撼动我
一起走着没说什么
心是满足的
这个瞬间随时都会崩塌
我没有其他的愿望
假如明天将消失了
趁现在我爱着
只想记得
被你抱着温柔的感受
Love is beautiful
So beautiful
我失去过
更珍惜拥有
多庆幸我是我
被你疼爱的我
紧紧牵住的手
不要放手
永远守护我
Love is beautiful
So beautiful
我很快乐
你会了解我
我不会再哭泣
是因为我相信
我们勇敢地爱着
每秒钟都能证明一生的美丽

At first, i dont really fancy this song but when dear started singing it over and over again, i think it's actually quite nice.I like the meaning to the song too.I just feel so xin fu after hearing it,从前我太是因悲伤,你的出现在无意中却深深撼动我...it actually meant that in the past im always miserable but your presence suddenly changed everything.Yes and thats him,my mr Ee Guo An..=) Though yesterday was another ordinary Sunday, he brought me to eat my favourite zhi ma hu and cooked the yummy korean noodles for me.It must be a blessing from God to offer me an almost 100% bf.I love you!Its such a nice feeling being in love coz Love is beautiful!haha..

2006-11-04T08:49:00.000+08:00

A bday kiss for the bday gal!
5 gals crazily enjoyed the cam-whoring session..
Babes of 1b03..haha
Idiots of 1b03..hahaha
orhh..what a sweet bday gal...
waiting for their food to be served
the yummy cake
my pretty ting and i..
Yesterday after lesson, the 11 of us went to far east to celebrate Nadz's birthday.We went to have ramen and the service is damm horrible.As all of us were broke, we only bought a slice of blueberry chessecake for her.After lunch,we went to walk around.It is really nice having this butch of crazy poly mates.I love em!hehe.Anyway happy birthday nadia!!!Hope she really enjoys this day with us.Then after town, i went to meet ah mui and ah tal.Chatted a lot of stuffs and as usual Angel's jokes never fail to crack us up.I love em too..haha.

2006-11-02T21:40:00.000+08:00

Well, im back to blog again despite feeling extremely exhuasted.This whole week were packed with lectures and tutorials.I have been really dilligent lately,doing my tutorials regularly and trying REALLY hard to listen attentively to whatever the teachers had said.This reminds me of the old kiasu,dilligent Josephine.I wonder what special power injected into me which gave me all the motivation and will to study like hell.I need this special power again!Im getting lazier and lazier each day.I realised that special power lefted me when my family broke up.I studied hard because i knew when i had remarkable results,there will be a chance for me to boast myself infront of my parents and also to earn that proud grin on their face.It felt so worthwhile when the two most important people in my life smiled at one another and gave me a pat on my shoulder.But now, it seems like the both of them are in their own world, for which its makes me extremely demotivated.Well,by right they should not be the one that i should be studying for,i should be doing it for myself, my future.Maybe if the next time when i begin to lose track in my motivation again, i will have to think of my future and my mum.I know i know,the recent entries were all boring because it's all about my family and i but pardon me,i really needs to pour out everything that has been bothering me.I dont feel good keeping it inside.By the way, I really appreciate those who have been constantly worrying and concerning for me.Merci!Especially my dearest boyfriend.He simply replaced the love i had been yearning for.He never fails to provide me with what i want.People said you will experience all of these because you are still in the honeymoon period but i believe his shower of love will not end in a month or two but will goes on and on."When a man loves a woman...."

2006-10-30T22:45:00.000+08:00

In dear papa car..so comfy!!hehe..

Zaza's baby sister..damm cute!!!
The old us..reminising the old times we had together..
I had an enjoyable weekend yet feeling blue at the same time.During Saturday, i went back to school for a make-up lesson.After lesson,i went with my butch of classmates to TM for lunch.I brought them to see my pretty ah mui.I wanted my best friend to know my good friends as well like ting ting.The minute they saw her,they all said we looked alike.Hmmm..Maybe since sec sch days,we had been seeing each other almost everyday thats why there are some similarities to our posture and the way we speak.Then after lunch,i went to my big aunt's house to visit both her and my brother.I wanted to see how he was doing.He was sick for 2 weeks.I just felt sorry for him.Sometimes i just think life is so unfair.He did so much for the family and since young he has been a good and sensible boy but why did his life seems so wreakless now?I really love my brother a lot and i hope his life will change for a better.Anyway,im glad he is staying with my aunt now,at least there is someone to look after him.

After that, dear came to fetch me and accompanied me to church.During mass, i had so much to pray for and so much of forgiveness to seek from God.Then,after mass ended we went to meet Jerry and Helen for dinner at Swensen.I love the tuna salad,its so healthy and yummy.Then,we decided to end our day at a stroll by the beach.Dear and i had a heart to heart talk by the beach.I like the ambience and atmosphere there,making me feel really peaceful and free of worries.Im so thankful for having him as my boyfriend, he is always there for me rain or shine.Glad to have him in my life now...

However,when i reached home.Mummy came to my room and told me that we could only rent a 1 room flat.I broke down and cried.1 room flat???!Which means there will be no room for me and maybe no air con for me as well.I admit from young im being pampered by my parents, though im not living in a big bungalow houses but the average yet comfortable house gave me the family warm and love that i need.Now,asking me to stay in such place makes me really difficult to accept the fact in such a short period of time.I need time to adapt to a new enviroment and i need time to accept this drastic change.Its so much for me.I coped myself in the room and cried for the whole day.I know there is no point crying but im sad and thats how i express my feelings.The fact of moving into a small pathetic house bothers me but the most saddening part is i may not have a chance to see my dad anymore.I wanted so much to talk to him,i wanted to tell him that i still loves him but...it seems totally pointless now.Today i saw karen's dad and he resembles my dad ,maybe its because both are peranakans and english-speaking.When i heard karen and her dad happily having small arguments about food and teasing at one another,it makes me miss my dad a lot a lot.I really feel so empty inside.I just knew that all i have to do now is to work extra hard financially and studies to help out my mum.I suddenly felt pressurised and life seems so meaningless to me now...

Anyway i shall post some pictures i took with dear last weekend and the hari raya visit at ah za's house..

2006-10-29T14:23:00.000+08:00

Young girl, don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl, it's all right
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly
When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Young girl, don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl, just hold tight
And soon you're gonna see your brighter day

Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you're lost outside look inside to your soul
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice withinYeah...Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know
You'll make it
You'll make it
Just don't go forsaking yourself
No one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall

2006-10-28T11:03:00.000+08:00

im damm du lan now!!!i dun care if its a bad word or what...IM JUST SUPER ANGRY!!!!TOLD U ALL MANY TIMES DUN COME MY ROOM AND TOUCH MY THINGS!!!!ONCE I CNT FIND MY THINGS,I JUST FLARE UP AND SCOLD U $%%^%^^&&*^!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SO WHAT IF IM MESSY..BUT I STILL KNOWS WHERE I PLACED MY THING.N FOR WHAT FUCK PACK MY THINGS...WE ARE SHIFTING SOON!!!PACK WHAT SHIT????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!TELL MEe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!aRGHHHHHH!!!nOW MY NAILS RHINESTONE JUST SCATTERED ALL OVER MY FLOOR...BLOODY HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!HATE PPL TOUCHING MY THINGS!!!

2006-10-27T14:36:00.000+08:00

"NOTICE OF VESTING AND TO TAKE POSSESSION",A notice that was pasted on my house door a few minutes ago.I knew this letter would come soon but i never expect when the moment i saw it,my tears started flowing.We have only 30 days from today to move everything out of our house.I suddenly misses all the furnitures i have at home,my bed,my table and everything.I really do not wish to move.I love my house..I really wonder where will i move to.If i move out from here,will all my friends in my neighbourhood forget about me?I dont want to create a distant with them.Im really sad...sigh...:`(

2006-10-26T23:05:00.000+08:00

No one ever saw me like you do
All the things that I could add up to
I never knew just what a smile was worth
But your eyes say everything without a single word

[chorus]
‘Cause there’s somethin’ in the way you look at me
It’s as if my heart knows you’re the missing piece
You made me believe that there’s nothing in this world I can’t be
I never know what you see
But there’s somethin’ in the way you look at me

If i could freeze some moment in my mind
Be the second that you touch your lips to mine
I’d like to stop the clock, make time stand still
‘Cause baby, this is just the way I always wanna feel
[repeat chorus]

[Bridge]
I dont know how or why I feel different in your eyes
All I know is it happens everytime

[repeat chorus]
The way you look at me

This song is FREAKINGGG sweet!!!If someone were to sing this to me, i think my heart will immediately melt..orhhhh..guys who are in love should really listen to this song...its so meaningful..

2006-10-25T21:36:00.000+08:00

Muack muack!Is my cap nice?Dear bought it for me!!I love it to bits!hehe
Dear is acting cool...come on give me a smile...
Act again...haha
lalala...=)
Bonsoir, comment vas tu?haha..these are the words i had learnt today.Today it was my first lesson of French.It was pretty fun,the teacher is so funky and hilarious.Hmm..school has started already.Finally i was able to meet all my beloved classmates.I misses them dearly.I realised many singles became attached after the holidays.I mean its just 2 months of break and things just changes so quickly and unexpectedly.Anyway, im already so attach to my class now,seeing them makes me really happy.I dont wish to change class next year.

Dear had also got his bike and i had also sat on it already.My first time was scary,my heart just raced.haha but now im not afraid anymore because i know im safe with him.Now ,dear fetches me to school every 2 days in a week which means i dont have to squeeze with all the students in the bus.keke.I believe love really makes a person really happy and fortunate.Having him in my life now makes me a different person.I hope this wonderful "journey" will continue.

I misses my old friends too.Just met ah tal and her kang kang on Monday.haha,wonder why her boyfriend is always so shy.She looks so xin fu now and im happy for her.Hopefully,he is the right one.I had not met ah mui for quite some now,hope she is doing fine too.I saw ah za too and im glad she is also leading a happy life now..hehe..alright,its now for my bath!salute!

By the way,I just went to Vivo city and its super HUGE.It has my favoruite Forever21 and Zara!Haha,another shopping paradise for girls!woo..hehe.i shall upload some of the pictures i took with dear today.

2006-10-20T14:52:00.000+08:00

two zi lian girls...haha!!
Hai ying,chun hui and i!!!
My timetable is out!Im so happy with the schedule.Though i got to wake up extra early but i get to go home early.I got into French class for my elective subject.Im kinda happy to get in coz its my first choice.Also,ah ting and izyan are also in French.so coincidence..haha.Next time we shall practice together.Im looking forward to the first lecture.

Work is gonna end soon,3 more days and im back to school.During work,i met a couple of friends.Its so enjoyable working with them.I just knew this girl and coincidentally,we are in the same business school.We got many things to chat about,from make-ups to boys.I also got to know this girl from China.She was married to a singaporean just for the sake of leaving her homeland.She is really adorable,always cracking us up.She even cooked fried rice for us for lunch.Though its not really yummy but thats so thoughtful of her.hahaha.Hope to go shopping with the 2 of them soon..hehe.

Dear finally got his motorbike and FINALLY he will end his repetitive sentence"if i got bike...."hahaha..hmm..later gonna sit his bike le..wonder how it feels like.Today is also my off day and im slacking at home now..i missssssssssssssssss thisssss feeling..can you imagine for 1 whole month i was either working or going out and i never got a chance to lie on the sofa,holding the remote control switching from one channel to another.I just feel so relax!I love being a couch potatoe...haha..sign of laziness..buttt still later im going out..haha too a small little shopping spree..got to get my stationary and stuffs..alright i want to bathe already..bubbye!!!

Je t'aime my an an...

2006-10-18T23:56:00.000+08:00

I was looking forward to the 18th which is today because i finally got my pay!!yoohooo!!!I was jumping for joy when i saw money on the ATM screen,my friend thought i was crazy.haha.The first thing i do when i got my pay was to look for dear's cap and the one i like.However,sadly the cap i like doesnt suits me because of the new shape.So i just bought for dear.Then i went to buy herbal tea for him too because his throat wasnt feeling really good this few days.I thought of surprising him by asking him to fetch me home today but but but..he told he is gonna be late.At that point when he said he is gonna be late,i felt so sad because it seems so pointless just sitting down at the interchange waiting for him,i might as well go home by myself without wasting any time.Then when he called again and explained why he was late,i was angry instead of sad.I was angry not because he couldnt fetch me on time,i was unhappy because he didnt said he was not on the way.Its like so troublesome for him.sigh,it makes me feel bad.He always place others infront of him and never think for himselfAs i was angry,i treated him coldly,haha but i always ended up giggling because his expression looked so cute when i ignored him.haha.anyway i just hope he likes the cap..i think my feelings for him are getting stronger and stronger each day..im missing him already..ZzZzZz................

2006-10-16T23:40:00.000+08:00

Today it was so hazzy that i got a real bad headache.Today i was supposed to go for a high tea buffet with my cousin but it was fully booked because i did not make a reservation early.i was too busy.However,i still met up with my dearest cousin.hehe..i really enjoy hanging out with her.Despite our age gap is 12 years apart, we still got lots of things to talk about.By the way,she doesnt looks like her age too,she always look younger then she is while i am always mistaken for being older.duh!Forget it,look matured isnt a bad thing what.haha.I like sharing with her my life stories, she always has lots of advices and predictions to give me.Maybe she got too much of experiences la.her ex-bfs are infinity...haha.I think through out these few years, she is my only closest relative,im even closer to her than my brother.I used to have many close cousins but due to family conflicts,we dirfted apart.sigh..its ok..i should be thankful that at least i still have her.hehe,she will always be my favourite cousin!!!"Blood is thicker than water."That's what my third aunt used to say but they didnt seems to put this quote to practice...

After that dear came to look for me and my mummy encouraged him not to get a motorbike.I know he loves it a lot but im getting worry for him.I really scared something might happen to him..CHOY CHOY!!i better dont say anything,*touchwood touchwood*..Just pray that he will be safe and sound whenever he is on the road.hehe but actually sitting on a bike is quite cool too..i cant wait to sit and feel the breeze sweep on my face...alright,time for bed,good night people...Oh yesh..im so in love with this current song in my blog now..The first time i heard it,i thought of dear and i.The lyrics of this song is so meaningful unlike those nice songs which lyrics are all break-ups.i hope dear will hear this song...hehe

2006-10-15T22:27:00.000+08:00

DA JIA HAO!!!haha.Wo de xin qing hao duo le wor.A few days back i was so affected by my job that i was feeling extremely down.However after dear came to accompany and comfort me, i felt much better.Thank you.=) Not forgetting my hao jie mei,ah tal.Thanks for being there when i need someone and helped me when im troubled.When i get my pay,i shall treat you to your favourite pepper lunch k?haa.Wonder how is she and her kang kang le...must be enjoying their honeymoon..keke..

Yesterday,while having break i went to shop around and i decided to do a keychain for dear and i because our keychains were spoiled.However,after doing his,i realised i got not enough money left to do mine so i just did his.After giving it to him,he realised i dont have and today he went to do one for me too so now both of us has one each.haha mine was much more expensive than his coz my name is super long.haha dont blame me blame my mummy for giving me such long name.Also,we did for his sister too coz it is her birthday today.He waited for 4 hours for me to knock off from work.so sweet right?keke.After work,he straight away brought me to metro to buy me a Guess wallet.He knew i wanted something from Guess and he bought it for me.Thank you dear.Sorry ,i think you had spent a lot on me.I promise i'll try to change my bad splurging habit.We also bought an Adidas shirt together.So nice!!Its gold and black.My fav colour!Hehe.

oh ya,i went along with his family for a buffet dinner at yuki yaki.It's really nice of his family to invite me.He has a smiley father,sweet-loving mother and adorable sister.By the way,the dinner was great.Ate many salmons today,dear and his mum kept piling my plate with food.Feeling so fat now or rather i never feel thin a single day,thats what my mum said.haha.hmm..it seems like i had been eating really well this few months and i felt kinda bad that my mum cant seems to enjoy such meal.I promise once i get my pay,i must bring her to somewhere nice for dinner.

ok,i shall end my grandma story here.Tml is finally another off day.Study hard for those that are starting school tommorow.Also,i wanna thanks dear for doting me a lot.I love u...

2006-10-13T00:37:00.000+08:00

It was za and liyana bday celebration today.Tal and i went to buy their gifts before meeting them for dinner.Hope they love the presents we bought.Met at pizza hut and as usual im broke again.SIAN!sigh,today's entry will be short and simple because im not in the mood today.Got complaint by a customer yesterday and was nagged by my mum just now.Feeling very blueeee now.However,meeting up with them was fun.Did some cam whoring in the toliet and laughed till the cleaner seems abit pissed off.haizz WTF,shall end here..im sad,im moody and i just dont feel like talking to anyone now...nights..:`(

ps.how i wish he is by my side comforting me till i fall asleep...

2006-10-09T10:54:00.000+08:00

This is dear and i...hehe love this neoprint a lot!!!

2006-10-08T22:32:00.000+08:00

HI im back!I had a great time yesterday and today.Ok,i shall say what i did yesterday.I ended work early and my dearest ah tal came to look for me and accompanied me to go to chomp chomp to meet the rest.Thanks my ah tal!hee.Hmm..frankly speaking i feel that ah tal changed a lot and of course change for the better.She used to keep to herself a lot and spoke really little but now she has open u to me about almost everything and she was even so concerned for me when i told her about my problems.I felt really touched!Whenever i have problems or great news to share,its always Angel that i'll call out to but now i'll also tell ah tal.I thanks God for these two beautiful angels...hee..

ok back to our chomp chomp dinner.Not many people went because of work and stuffs.So there were only ah tal,mui,juan and geraldine.We had a hearty meal,seafoods and chicken wings are simply heavenly!haa.I miss ah juan a lot.I hope God will bless her and give her strength in whatever she does.Surviving on herself without the help of her parents make me respect her.I think if my mummy is not around,i will be dead..im not as fillial and sensible as her.Anyway im glad we had this small gathering,its so nice catching up with them.After that, dear dad longbang us to j8 to catch a movie.dear was late thats why he cnt join us for dinner.Hehe.dear's papa really damm kind..in fact the whole family is kind la!haa!we watched me,you and molly.its funny and moving.oh ya,yesterday i wore a blouse that i bought at bugis a few days ago and what happen was ah mui also bought exactly the identical one!I cant believe we always eye on the same thing!!!haha,no wonder we are BEST friends!hee.Then on the way back on the taxi,mui,juan and i talked.haha i really miss those times when the 3 of us are together.we always break into a loud laughter whenever we talk.Worst still,the 3 of us laugh really loud and imagine 3 kind of laughter remix together,wahh..hahaha..sigh...times passes so quickly..

Today was also a nice Sunday.I had an enjoyable date with dear today.His papa bought for him N73 phone today,my dream phone!!So xian mu.haha.After accompaning him to buy his phone,we went to bugis for shopping.Dear bought me a t-shirt and belt.Thanks my love!I'll treasure whatever you bought for me!I think today seems to be our first date together.Previously,it was just either spending the time doing nothing much or out with friends together while today its just the 2 of us.=)i hope there will be more to come.Then he accompanied me to eat dinner.haha i wanted to eat korean ginseng soup so much and i had my full today le,feel so happy!keke.omg i feel like drinking the soup again..ok i got to sleep for now..nights..loving every single one of u!!!

2006-10-04T21:11:00.000+08:00

Good evening!Though today was a tring day,i had lots of fun!hehe.By the way i only slept for 5 hours last night because i was thinking of what to write in my qin shu for an an.Die already,my inspiration is failing me or rather failing my creativity.Im always so creative in deciding what to do as a gift for people.I took so long to think.Then next morning after dolling up,i went straight to ah tal's house.Guess why i went her house so early...its because we are planning to bake something for our sweethearts!hehe.its all my bright idea.

Actually,i thought of buying something for an an after i get my tuition pay but i walked causeway point up and down and i still cant find any nice gift.Actually i wanted to give him a gift not because there is an occasion or what,its just that i feel like giving.haha.ok back to ah tal house,then we started doing the oatmeal chocalate chip cookies first followed by the blueberry muffin.As we were busy doing,we chatted as well.We shared about one another requirements in a relationship and what our sweetheart does that make us go ga ga over them.haha,i really enjoyed the baking session with her.Adores her lots!By the way,our cookies and muffins taste superb...hehe.really hope both of our bfs love it.

After that i did the washing,so ke lian right..this ah tal lor i know she hates washing so i got to wash but its ok,im training to be a good housewife!haa!But when i really becomes one,i make sure my husband do the washing while i cook.ha ha ha!!!After we were done with the packaging, she accompanied me to an an's house to put the things there.I really dont know where to put lor,in the end i put at the shoe rack there.hai yo but its not obvious,i wonder an an saw it already anot..now its 9.20..waiting for his call.I bluffed him that i want the shoe rack and asked him to look for it.haha so funny!

Then around 12,crystal went to meet her friend and i went to meet my cousin,karen.I miss her so much!hehe.we went shopping around bugis and gosh i saw so many beautiful clothes..this round the clothes are all very pretty.Im tempted to buy everything le!!!CANNOT ARHH!!!anyway im glad to meet up with her today,we got lots of things to update one another.next week we are going for a high tea buffet..yahooooo..

thought of posting the pictures we took while making the cookies but blogger got sth wrong,sigh..post it some other days..k i got to sleep,tml its back to work..nights...

2006-10-03T22:18:00.000+08:00

Just now i nearly ended up in a heated argument with my mummy.Sometimes she just dont understands me enough.She said she just dont get it where had my allowance gone to.Mum,i need to pay 200 for my braces,70 for my insurance and 52 for my bus concession.It is over my allowance already.Though sometimes when i have extra,i will spent,it is not wrong what!Im still a teenager and it is easy for me to eye for all sort of things.Dont tell me that i cant spend on anything???I already tired to scrimp on what i eat,sometimes i just buy a 1.50 sandwich to fill my stomach up and wait for work to end and rush home to eat.Isnt it enough?Im so fed up!Second thing that made me flared up was she think im some kind of a human machine or what.After work,i rushed home to eat my dinner before giving tuition.I tried to eat as fast as i could already yet she said ''the poor boy wants to sleep already,you still dont want to leave arhh''the poor boy,poooor boy...yes im paid to teach but im also a human being,i should be the poor gal instead.cant i just eat my meal peacefully..im drained..really drained..i just hope the money will drop from the sky..i cant believed im crying over this.I dont want to owe money from anyone anymore.I must not give up,its just 3 weeks left and im back to school.I promised when im back to school,my main focus will be on my studies.The first sem result was really sucks,throw million of rotten eggs also not enough.sigh...now the only thing that can make me happy is my friends and boyfriend.Just seeing them alone can make me on cloud nines.Tommorow is my off day,im meeting ah tal and karen!I cant wait for the next day to arrive...i miss an an dearly..:`( nights.........

2006-10-01T23:14:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 1 MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!!haha.ya i know its only a month la but im glad we have come this far.I really thanks my dearest Guo an for treating me like a princess,giving me all the love and care i need.How i wish we will last till forever...I love u!

Yesterday was my off day and i went to celebrate Jlai's birthday with the rest of them.We went to arab street for an arabian dinner.what a unique and different kind of dining.It was memorable because it was unlike the usual dining at cafes and etc..Good recommemdation by Nadia!hehe.i had crispy chicken with mushroom sauce,it was yum yum!hehe.im so happy to see my classmates after so long.too bad ms tan wan teng cannot come if not it will be more fun.hahaha.oh ya,shawna is attached too!im so happy for her!!congrats!it was so surprising,a month ago,she whined and said her love is always one sided but now BOMB,she has a CUTE boyfriend.hehe.actually i love my friends to have bf when im having one too coz if i have any problem,telling people whom are in a relationship will understand u better.hehe.Then after dinner,an an drove his dad's car to find me.he is so noob with bugis street that his good friend jerry had to accompany him and lead him the way.haha.oh ya,im glad jerry and helen are back together though im not that close with them.They seems really loving and serious about each other.Anyway,seeing an an yesterday made me a happy gal!keke.i like him driving me around while holding my hands.like so sweet lor..sighh..5 more days and i cant see him again..so sad..

by the way,my ah tal seems like she has found her mr right and im super happy for her..i also hope she will be as happy and xin fu as me..wish her all the best.alright i got to sleep.good night!

2006-09-29T22:43:00.000+08:00

Ah jo is complaining again...she is damm f*cking tired!!!!I was late for work today but luckily the manager did not say anything.Well,for the past few days,its just pressing the buttons and folding the clothes and back to pressing the buttons again...repetitive work,at first it was kinda fun but now BORING!!!Work is never enjoyable.Recently heard a lot of conflicts between the staffs and some told me to be careful of certain people.Now,i miss school but without exams.HAHA!FAT HOPE!Ok,work isnt that bad la,at least my friends came to visit me.During my off day,i met ah tal for dinner and went to play pool with seng they all.Then the next day,they came to look for me and accompanied me for dinner.Thanks a lot ya!I just likes my two best friends standing beside me and chatting with me,they just makes my day!Im refering to angel and crystal.hehe.While today ,angel came to keep me company again..feel so fortunate to have such great besties...=) and of coz my wonderful bf.Though he cant keep me company physically but i know he is always there for me mentally.He never fail to call me when he is having his break and ask me how i am.Thats good enough for me.

Recently,i got my allowance and my dad still short me of money.I wonder if im really that angry with my dad or i had changed to a hard hearted person.When he asked me about it,i forced myself not to look at his face for fear i will change of heart and told him to forget about the short of money.It has been 3 consecutive months long since i had spoken to my dad a word.This is the longest time i had not spoke to him at all.And for 3 months,i no longer felt the fatherly love i always had.In fact deep down in my heart,i still love my dad a lot.However the hurt and impact he created make me retreat from him slowly and slowly away.We started to pack our stuffs into boxes already,preparing to move out from this current house after the second letter arrives.This also means after we move out,i'll not see my dad anymore.Whenever i look at the photos of my dad and i,tears start rolling down.Its time to face the reality.Im on my own already.My mum is all i have.I will try my best to give her a comfortable life like how she used to give me ever since i came into this world.Lord,lead me through...

2006-09-25T23:14:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is jojo's off day!!Yaaaaaaaaa...hoooooooooo!!!MUHAHAHA!Yes!yes!yes!I want to replenish my lost sleep.super fatigue now.My job was fine,met a few friendly staffs & time passes very quickly especially during the weekends.Saturday after work,dear's family came to pick me up for dinner at chinatown.It was nice eating with them.I feel the family warm and the lost feeling that i once had with my family too.Sitting with them in the car makes me think of the time when my parents,my brother and I went out together as a happy family.Dear is so lucky to have such great kins,im happy for him.:) Then the next day,dear brought me to work and even accompanied me till lunch time.I feel so blessed and secured to have him by my side,he always gave me the feeling that i have someone to rely on.

Just now watched spore idol results show with my mummy.She LOST!!!haha.I meant she lost the bet i had with her.She bet on Jonathon while i bet on Hady though i prefer jonathon.I opposed her just to spite her coz she is really into Jonathon.She is full of praises for him.haha but the end result was,Hady won!when they annouced it,i was dumbfounded,especially my dear mum.She was so dissapointed that she nearly cried.I laughed until i lied down on the floor when i saw her expression.She kept scolding vuglurities whenever Hady said something.Really funny.She must be falling head over heels for Jonathon.I never seen my mum so agitated over this kind of thing before.haha.

Im so sad now.Why does a relationship become so fragile after ones true colour was shown?..i miss crystal very much.i miss swimming with her,i miss talking to her about "that" stuffs,i miss munching tibits wit her,i miss just she and i sitting in the bus travelling from one place to another,i just miss her!Working takes away many of our leisure time but i know its all worthwhile coz after the hardship,enjoyment is on our way..haha..k le..time to sign off..good night!

2006-09-22T23:00:00.000+08:00

Almost freaked out when i looked myself into the mirror,i thought i saw a panda..Last night i watched er zuo ju until 6am in the morning.I think im crazy over this drama already.This show is so sweet.At first i dont really like the leading actress because i think she doesnt look pretty at all.haha but after a few series,i think she looks really adorable.The leading actor is quite suave.keke.I like this drama a lot because the never say die spirit of xiang qing(the lead actress) really very gan ren fei fu.(haha another idiom!)while zhi shu(the lead actor) give the bu nai face made the whole show almost so perfect.haha whenever i watch this show,i will think of an an.Maybe its because he recommended me this show..haha.hmm im missing him abit liao..alright i wanna koon liao..wan an!

2006-09-21T22:38:00.000+08:00

My legs are going to break soon...working is so tough..though its quite relaxing because there arnt many people but whenever customers wanna foot the bill,im all tense up!Its so pressurising being a cashier.I get nervous whenever something goes wrong.Lucky the staffs there are so kind,i kept calling them for help yet they didnt mind and told me to relax.sigh,I will never be a cashier again!NEVER EVER AGAIN!However I will not let this stop me from making money.I will bear with it,its just a month!I CAN DO IT!!!Actually this whole month im working everyday,though there is an off day,i have to give tuition too.I feel so sick la!Why i must work so hard??I really hope i can just marry to a rich guy and enjoy luxuriously for the rest of my life.I know this is a wishful thinking and it will never be possible.Actually i no need a rich husband also,as long i can be a housewife and he can give me enough money,im contented already.I rather be a housewife than work!!!I prefer to cook delicious food and wait for my husband to come home everyday than staying in the office dealing with all the paperwork.I RATHER DIE!!!ARGHHH....I HATE WORKING!!!~:`( i prefer studying..no no i prefer to be a toodler,no work and no study..wahh super good!Free from worries too.Being a kid is always so nice BUT everyone gonna grow up.Alright no more whining and grumbling...i will jia you de!Anyway my life is quite blissful now because i have a wonderful mum whom cook for me healthy and yummy dinner,a boyfriend that dote on me a lot and friends that give me support.hehe.Yesterday i finally saw an an after 3 days,his ah pa come and fetch me home.so nice...i sat the car again.ai ya whoever drive me i will love the person to max...I JUST LOVE TRANSPORT!!!!hmm i mean private transport..hahaha..alamak,i sounds so lazy huh..anyway im lazy by nature.hehe.1 more day and i can see him again!!goody goody..ok dont know what to type liao..byebye..sayonara!!!

2006-09-18T23:08:00.000+08:00

Today i met up with the 3 amazing ladies,yesh they are my most important friends in life,Glitz!~.However sadly,i only spent 3 pathetic hours with them because of tuition again.We went to the budget ktv at hougang cc!only 5.50 per person wor.cheap right?its dearie recommended one.lalala!~so funny today we laughed and laughed as we sang.ah tal so cute,she picked a nursary song"london bridge".Its like so long since we had such a good laugh.Last time in class,we always laughed until our classmates cnt tahan us.I really love them a lot a lot!!!sigh..tml must work le..how??abit reluctant now.i think i must be a siao,i now feel like stop working and studying and be a shao nai nai.AH JOSE BU KE YI ARHH!!~~you must have backbone and contribute to the society!!!second sigh...dear is also working hard now.i think he is worst,his work is more tough than mine.I think we will have less time for each other now.That's so sad but nvm,absence made one heart fonder and also we will have more money to spend.yi ju liang de!wahh my chinese so pro now ar,i noe how to use idioms leh.haha lame le...tml i must ganbate!!!RICH ah jose is on the way to make her first thousand..................

2006-09-17T21:36:00.000+08:00

Finally im back to church!haha.Im really a bad catholic,always go one time then skip.Anyway our catholic community is facing a vocation crisis now and its so serious that they even created a video to encourage all of us to pray.Actually i think this society has changed so much that not many young people are really devote to religion kind of stuffs.So finding someone to be a priest now is really difficult...Singapore is so lack of priests that we got to get them overseas.My parish priest used to be a China man.Hopefully the number of priests will increase soon.hehe anyway im glad to know that Ai ren is attached!!Gong xi gong xi!Coincidence thing is we both are attached at almost the same time.keke.We are out of the single club!!!haha.Actually many were surprised that Guo an and i are together now,even im shocked too!i really cant believe la.We are classmates since sec2 and then suddenly we became so close.weird thing is we dont talk much to each other at that time.How i wish we are together earlier..errr..but its impossible la,coz we arnt attracted to each other at that period of time.ai ya besides us,also got other people that got together unexpectedly,like ah tal and bran lor.hahaha.1 used to be a school belle then another one used to be a school nerd then suddenly get together,wahh this one super crazy la!haha but in the end they also quite happy together what.hmm cupid zai zuo guai!but my dearie is really good to me la.I must treasure him.hehe today he lend me taiwan drama DVDs to watch le,i wont be bored liao!!happy happy!ok la..i wanna go watch my er zuo ju le..sayonara...

2006-09-16T12:34:00.000+08:00

Do we look sweet??
People said he look like korean actor,haha!

What a faithful trip yesterday!Our pulau ubin trip was cancelled because of the damm rain.I love rain but it just fall on the wrong time.Guess where we head to again?Century square!Wo de tian ar!i went there for like 3 days in a row already.We watched the Banquet.Quite nice but the stupid thing is all of them die in the end.Can anyone just tell me the morale of the story??Anyway the guys also bought for us chocalates,super yummy!Very expensive also,1 small box cost about 10bucks.Its good chocalate thats explained why.Then after the movie,I went to an an house for dinner.His mum whipped up some delicious dishes like kang kong and chicken..had an enjoyable dinner yesterday!After that we decided to walk with q q and panda downstairs.They super strong la,run and run like mad dog!!haha.Then we past by ah za house so i called her down for a chat.i miss her like mad lor.hehe.misses the time we walked to school together.alright i shall end here,wanna go makan le..shall post some pictures here..

2006-09-15T00:24:00.000+08:00

Josephine finally has the time to update her blog.I was super busy for the past few days.Alright,what did i done for the past few days...hmm..seriously i cant remember,dead i think im really suffering from short term memory.i just remember i went for my job interview then movie then..anyway forget it!i shall say what i did today.

yesh yesh i finally met my beloved ah mui!!!i missesssss herrrrr tilllllll i feel like hugging her..hehe.as usual,we have endless conversation.She treated me to a feast today at Phin's steakhouse.Thanks ah mui!After i get my pay,it will be my turn.Billy bombers yay!!!we walked around TM and after much dilly dally,i decided to buy the orange heels.Its so so so SEXY!!!I cant wait to wear it.haa!Then we chatted about our secondary sch days.super hilarious la!Can you imagine at the beginning of this year,i wasnt used to my poly life because i felt that sth was missing in my life and i realised it was her that i missed.For the past few years,we have been seeing each other almost everyday,going to sch together,eating together,going home together and even for our weekends,we spent time together.Hell!She is like so so IMPORTANT to me.I think i love her more than my bf.HAHAHA.I cant wait for Monday to come coz Glitz is going out...haha!!!

And tml im goin PULAU UBIN!!~Im going with an an,ah tal and bran..I think my holidays im always spending time with them.haha but i really enjoy it.An an treated me really well but i think he is too good that i feel bad sometimes.i dont know what im thinking la and what i really wants.It's really weird.Am i right getting into a relationship?I feel restricted.Anyway,i need to work next week already.Had been splurging too much of money recently.but retail therapy makes me feel good...extremely extremly good!~

sigh!!i did badly for my exams.im getting all the Cs and Ds.I think i really let my mum down.I really feel so fortunate to have such a mother.I called her to tell her my results and she didnt reprimand me instead she told me nicely that if working caused me to lose concentration on my studies,she will find another odd job and give me extra money.when i heard this,i really feel like telling my mum how much i love her.I had also realised that i had not been spending time with her or even have a decent meal with her.This saturday i shall give her all my time.I must not let her down anymore and i will definately buck up next sem and show her some good results.

alright,i should be getting some rest now.My two eyebags are like goldfish eyes now.by the way i miss my poly friends too especially Izyan and ting.i hope to see them next week...

2006-09-10T23:15:00.000+08:00

I was out the whole day!At first, bran and i were supposed to meet at church for mass but he got the timing all wrong so instead we went to cp for breakfast with his parents.Then an an and ah tal came to meet us later.Hehe we bought our keychain already,its very sweet and nice,got magnet one.haha.After that i suggest to go to town coz i wanna buy all my daily necessity,shampoo,conditoner blah blah blah..actually tal and i wanna settle our lunch at pepper lunch but we all had no money.:( i must eat pepper lunch one day!!!i dont care!!haha.in the end we ate yoshinoya but also yummy la.hehe.then we headed to our ktv,actually we wanna sing at hougang cc which cost super cheap but then we decided to go chinatown to sing.then when we went around to ask about the price,we realised its over our budget,can you believe ah tal and i kept bargaining with the kbox captain for a cheaper rate.he seems bu nai fan.haha.ai ya nvm la,no money is like that.then we thought we no chance to sing le but after that an an brother came to the rescue.we went kster for free!!!haha,we only have to pay for the drinks!so good leh!!happy happy,ah jose juz like free things.:P so we sang till 9pm and then we went back home liao.i feel that these 2 days we are like on a holiday,eat and enjoy,eat and enjoy.ming tian wo yao jian fei le!!!oh yeah today i ate my sesame paste le!!so happy!haha.hmm..i think im getting more and more close to an an le..i wonder why i like him..i think he really make the girl he likes feel special.oh ya i remembered i mentioned in my previous blog that whoever be his gal will be lucky,i cant believed the person might be me.chemistry and love strucked without you knowing can be quite a mystery...well..i had enjoyed myself too much already,its time to eat some hardship,next week i must do labour le..sian..sigh..btw i miss my ah mui..it has been so long since i saw her,she seems busy with her work,mui mui,if u c my blog,u must call me k..i miss u lots!!!btw i super love this jay chou song la...damm nice lor..repeat dunnoe hw many times le..so romantic..jay chou is super shuai too..haha my idol..

2006-09-10T01:11:00.000+08:00

Today im kinda happy again.haha,my life seems to be getting more and more bountiful.Perhaps its the power of love of my friends and somebody la.oh yeah,today i went with ah tal to swim at my aunt's condo.though i exercised,i think my effort all merely went down to the drain coz we ate all the super fattening food.we went to buy tibits plus my mum also bought for us biscuits,die loh,like that can no need to thin liao.sigh.then after that we went to meet an an and bran.the 2 of us so poor thing can,wait for them for like 1 hour,just drift from one end to another end with a hungry stomach.hehe but after seeing him made my anger all dissappeared.anyway he is not as late at bran la so nvm.hahaha.his family also came along and they treated us to eat.so good hor..ai ya shit man i ate nasi lemak today.nvm nvm dont say le wait i more guilty.haha and the funny thing of today is ah tal and bran kept bickering non-stop,make me laugh.anyway i really hope they will get back together coz both r my good friends!!tml i shall pray for them.then after the hearty meal,an an dad drove us home,wahh his car very comfortable and big.i really enjoy car ride.tml we are going to church together and after that going to ktv!!woo la la..hao qi dai wor..hopefully next week trip to pulau ubin will be successful too..i love my life now bcoz i have u,u and only u...=)

2006-09-09T15:15:00.000+08:00

Ah jose today is mad!She feels like eating cheesecake,pasta,chocalates,mochi icecream and lots more!!!arghhhh!!!~~save me from those hunger pangs!stupid sun just dont seems to go away,i want to run but i also want to protect my skin against the uv rays!nvm nvm,1 more hour and im going to swim,this round 100 times.sigh...i wanna go sing ktv tonight!!!i wan to sing my lungs out.i feel so stress and pressurize to control my diet.next week got sony ericssion gathering at zouk,dont know wanna go anot,like so bo liao lor.haizz mood swings recently.btw yest i went to an an house and i saw his mother,sister and brother.haha the family seems nice & warm.The mother like very dote on them.I so xian mu him because he has a happy and complete family.Butttt nvm,maybe this is God's will,i might not have a happy family but i may have something special that others dont have.so dont compare!!!!haha and yesterday anan nv wear spects ever since sec sch days and i think he looks so cool without it..ai ya bo liao dont wanna type le,fingers tired liao,i must prepare to call the ah tal to wake up,PIG!!!shud change to ah de lor..y everyone is sleeping???hello people,its noon,WAKE UPPP!!!~~bye bye..haizzz...

2006-09-07T23:16:00.000+08:00

Some random pictures of today...cam-whoring as usual..haahaa
me in my bling bling glitter cap...off to my fren's house!!!
Trying to act cute again...kawaii pose no.1
kawaii pose no.2...flaunting my pink little braces..haha
kawaii pose no.3..
back to my lovely smile...hahaha...
im loving this top!!!
ok..now trying to act ma chiam im modelling..what a lucious lip i have!!! i want to be a hair model!!!hahaha...
la la la...enough of cam-whoring...THE END!!!

2006-09-07T10:45:00.000+08:00

Day 1:
After a nice bath,everyone looked refresh..
Wan jun,izyan,me and ting

The four drinks of the night..
Pretty lil shawna...
holding the bottles for photo purposes..haha..
the 4 of us slept together..it's so nice spending the night with them!=D
Sensible rebecca and us..haha..rebecca is really a matured n sensible gal!!
17,18,19....HAHA thats our age la!!bt i seems like the oldest hor...

Day 2:BBQ day
me holding the plate for izyan to put the hotdogs,she look like satay gal rite?
this guy is the joker in our class,our cracking lame jokes to us..haha mr tim!!
back to us..the 3 goody goody friends..both of dem r my loves..
sweetie izy izy...
Nice hotdogs rite??but this cause me to run 4 rounds!!!*angry angry*
chatting and chilling out..thats when shawna started drinking!!!
our class pic..bt its only half of us,the rest dont know go where..
back to our room and back to our photo taking obsession!!haa
leo chics..tats what izy named the both of us..keke bo liao..
ai yo!!!who eat one ar??haha its us la!!eat until damm shiok sia!!
beautiful ladies...:P
chinkiat(jay chou wannabe),sean(mr macdonald) and pretty me.hahahaha!!
wahh c e diff btwn our skin colours,so hapi to c my skin so fair!!ms snow white!
beware of this guy ar!!!he hor..ai yo...beta dun say..hahaha..stupid bear!

2006-09-05T14:48:00.001+08:00

i just returned home from chalet and a jog around punggol park.I was damm guilty for eating the potatoe chips and hotcakes that when i reached home,i immediately put down my bag,changed into a sports attire and ran to punngol park.haa!I was supposed to stay for 2 nights but my mum dont allow and i got to give tuition ,however after tuition,i got to rush back for BBQ.Anyway yesterday we had a really splendid time together.Izyan,wanjun,nadia and i went to wild wild wet!!it was free!hahaha super happy!so fun la and quite scary.I think im quite timid now,im scared of heights and those thrilling rides.I used to love it when i was young and i was always the brave one to try out everything first,i guess people do change as they grow older.i actually screamed extremely loud that izyan kept laughing!!!The gals are really great to hang out with,we were gigling and playing all the way.izyan is always the di siao siao one.haha.after that we join the rest of the class for dinner and then return back to the little game in our chalet.We were playing "even or odd" and who guessed wrongly gonna drink either barcadi or vodka.My heart beats very fast whenever its my turn because i dont like to drink alcohol and i scared i will be drunk.hahaha.sounds like a small innocent gal..thanks god,im super duppee lucky for the first few rounds,i kept guessing it correctly.yet poor shawna who was sitting infront of me kept losing,so she decided to change her seat as well as her feng shui.but bloody hell,after she changed,i started losing and i drank 2 cups.eeyyee i hate it,drink until my head abit giddy.after the game,we went for a midnight walk and it was really scary and irritating because of all those flies but i still enjoyed it bcoz 1b03 is a butch of lovable peeps.haha.i really really love my class!!!then when we went back,the gals had a heart to heart chat about guys and guys and more guys!!!haha everyone seems to have problem with guys.they said im so lucky bcoz my love is 2-sided while theirs are 1-sided but that doesnt means 2-sided is always the fortunate one.becausei still dont wish to get into a relationship and i felt really bad.im selfish!anyway i just let nature take its course.okok...i need to bathe already...byee..

2006-09-05T14:48:00.000+08:00

2006-09-04T00:45:00.000+08:00

la la la la!!!!~~~Josephine is having a wonderful day today!Firstly i got to meet my beloved brother and next i went out with ah tal and lastly,i met an an.hahaha.Today i see my kor kor,i think he is very pitiful because he told me that everyone seems to take advantage of him just because he has a kind heart.my dad,my mum,my bro,his frens,his collegues,his gf and even me seems to take him for granted.Now i know whats the reason for him not returning home to sleep.Anyway my home doesnt seems like a home also.:(Today my cousin called to tell me that she saw my dad and his gf outside,after hearing that i was filled with anger and sadness but what can i do,its just adding more hatred for him.alright enough of unhappy stuffs..today i suddenly feel like exercising so i called ah tal to jog with me but she wanna swim instead so i suggest that we go to my aunt's condo for a swim.wahh ah jose is so good gal leh,she swim for "55 laps"..haha but the laps is short distance one la.ai ya bt still swim wat.happy lor!feel a sense of achievment n satisfaction!!after that we headed to the suana,steamy hot la!haha.i really enjoy going out and talking with ah tal now..i feel that we have return back to the sec2 times where both of us r like hao jie mei.ah tal,lets not hide anything fr each other,talking it out make each of us understand one another better..hehe i luv u so much...then after that we met an an and brandon at TM for dinner.actually i like 4 of us go out together,like so sweet..hahaha..siao le siao le.after that we went to punggol end for a stroll.at 12am,we leave the place because im super sleepy le and i got to get ready for tml chalet.haha and an an drove me home,drove leh,he didnt bluff me sia,he really know how to drive car.i just like man who knows how to drive..hehe.i cant wait for friday bcoz we r getting the couple keychain together..haha!!okok i wanna orh orh le..tml off to my chalet!!!zai jian and tc everyone...ah jose misses u all..muacks!!!~~~

2006-09-01T23:08:00.000+08:00

Im so Happy!Because i saw Mr Yeo today!!!hehehe.his baby is so adorable..i miss his lessons so much.he used to dote on crystal and i,both of us never fail to look for him whenever we are in school.anyway im glad he is happily settled down le.Also,i finally chatted with ah cheong online after so long..keke..i really enjoy and feel comfortable telling him my love life and problems.His advices are always so useful.He will always be my NUMBER.1 favourite teacher!!!!ah cheong zui ban!!~hahaha.haizz..but just when we chatted about slimming,he said when he saw me a few months ago when i slim down,i look prettier.now he said i like fatter abit liao.haizz..heart pain.bastard food!!!stop tempting and luring me to eat u can???especially chocalates..u bloody idiot!!haizz!dun say le dont say le..i always ban tu er fei..so sick of myself..by the way tommorow i gonna meet my kor kor!!!super happy la!!coz i misses him so much...i hardly had a nice chat wif him ever since he had been attached(n tat is like 7 yrs ago lor!!:( )...since now he is single,i should quickly spend time with him before he patch back or has a new gf!!!hahaha...and if he has a new gf,i hope she wont be a possesive and control freak!!coz i want my kor kor to be a happy person and i want a sister in law that will love me as much as my bro loves me.After seeing so many break down in people relationship,i began to have phobia towards it or rather i already had.im afraid to get hurt again and im scared of commitment now.i dont want to be tied down.i want to enjoy my youth!anyway its not good to think of that..really...i must pray to God to let me overcome this!!!got to sleep..sayonara...

2006-08-31T21:47:00.000+08:00

Damm!Im feeling extremely guilty now.The moment i reached home,i saw a gift on my table and it was from my student.It was a Teacher's day gift,a photoframe of his picture.It was really an unexpected and sweet gift.I was guilty because i bluff his mum that i was sick and im unable to make it for today.How can i be so irresponsible?I choose fun over helping him in his studies.But but...i really want to spend time with my friends.I missed them so much,angel,crystal,syaza,juan,wan yi and geraldine.This is like a rare opportunity to meet and go out with them because everyone is in a different school now.Anyway,im really relieve and happy today because my exams are finally over.Also,i went back to my secondary school to visit my teachers.I saw Mrs Lim,mr wu,mrs viddya,ms lee and many more.haha i really missed punggol.Though mrs viddya is really lazy,she can be really nice too,haha she even hugged me when she saw me!i also saw ah wu,my uncle,haha can you believe i actually had a crush on him when i was in sec4??OMG!!oh ya i saw ms farah...i still hate her,she is still as hypocritical.teacher-student relationship??go n eat shit la!! @$#$% 5 years in punggol really bring lots of fond memories,its a place where i matured from a young gal to a fine lady.Time flies..Sadly,today i dont have the chance to see mr cheong and mr yeo..my favourite teachers!!!sigh..haha but never mind coz today i saw an an.Dont know why today see him my heart beat so fast.i must be crazy!haha.today i finally saw wan yi!!so glad to see her.we used to chat a lot during school times.i still rmb she always help me in my chinese oral while i helped her in the english one.Then after visiting the teachers,we went to watch snake on the plane.wahh,super thrilling but gruesome.i had a free "massage session" the whole day from ah tal,she siao one lor,keep grabbing my arms.haha!!But damm nice lor...the breast part is so funny!keke.wahh super tired now wor,from 12 am last night till now,i still haven sleep.i look so haggard now...i wanna orh orh le..good night people...muack muack..happy teacher's day to all teachers!!!hee...i love my glitz too...

2006-08-31T02:42:00.000+08:00

Im so sad now.I just got the news that my brother has broken off with his girlfriend.I just feel so sad now.I really hope he will get marry soon.Please lord,help them to get back together.Why everyone in the army seems to face break ups???is it a trend?Its insane!!I really feel like giving up on accounting now..im bound to flunk badly..feeling so exhuasted now..i just miss my bed so badly!sigh...im looking forward to tml..coz im visiting my secondary school.hehe..

2006-08-30T05:00:00.000+08:00

Yippie yippie!!Ah jose is super duppee happy today.Though im so stress up now,the little yummy mac breakfast lighten me up.Can you believe im grinning away as im typing now?hahaha.Im beginning to think of someone right now..keke..i hope im the lucky girl.wahh..ah za has a boyfriend now le..so happy for her..after so long,finally she get to be with the guy she likes.I think the power of love can make someone really very happy,yesterday while chatting with ah za through the phone,you can hear that she is really blissful now..ai ya i just so happy for her now la..haa..i must be siao le.okok back to my studies le..jia you ah jose!!!

2006-08-26T20:53:00.000+08:00

Im feeling so terrible now.Im so stress that i cant eat,i cant sleep and my head hurts real bad.I could no longer take it anymore until i cried for an hour just now.I wonder why i had become so vunerable towards stress.I was able to manage it really well in sec sch times.I realised i have not been putting my education as my priority as well.Scoring As is not in my mindset anymore.My dad predicted it right,before i enter poly,he told me i am bound to neglect my studies.I wished i could tell him my problems now and i really hunger for his encouragement and advises.It's always his encouragement that strive me to do better just like the nlevel and olevel period.But now my dad has gone to somewhere far apart,a place where it is impossible for me to look for him...daddy,will u just come back?:`(

2006-08-26T00:11:00.000+08:00

couple become hao peng you,hao nan de wor!!!~~haha
See his old hair..so much nicer...haha
i like this pic a lot coz i look very sweet inside.hahahaha!!!
WHAT THE HELL?blogger,if this time u dua me again,i gonna kill u!!!hem!Just now post until so nice then all vanished in a sec!Alright shall repeat what i had written just now.Before i met my ex for dinner,i went with xiao an zai to study but unfortunately it ended up in a chatting day again.haha.Then after that,i met my ex in the mrt.He was late and as usual he wont denied is his fault,such a idiot right??*gals out there,choose bf must choose reasonable one!!hahaha.he also shocked me with his new looks,super ah beng now le...should have took a photo of him and post it here.i think his look is deterioating lor while mine is improving(hahaha,he sure complain once he read this,blah!)just jokin la!haha but nonetheless his sunshine smile still never fade.We went to paris buffet to have our dinner.it was a treat from him coz he still owes me a bday pressie.hehe he knew i love choco fondue and sashimi so he brought me that,at least he still rmbs what i like so lovin him once wasnt that bad afterall.haha.i think the food there are great,there are so much of variety to choose from.Super ex too...next time got money must bring my mum along.hehe.i feel so pig now la,sigh tml must exercise and study again.sian diao...haizz...i dont want to elaborate any further,shall head to bed now...hehe anyway i shall post some old photos of us.dont misunderstood,its just reminisng,nothing much..hehe..

ps.tell me why eating is such a pleasure while exercising is such a torment,not fair!!!~